I am so very sorry she is gone from you in the way you have always known her but you still hold her in your heart. Losing a child is the hardest loss anyone could endure.
Are there any support groups with other parents who have lost a child? I think when you are ready, you might find them to be very helpful and supportive, and may be able to even support others in the group.
Again, my condolences. Do not try to be brave during this time. Cry, talk out loud as if she could hear you, talk to others about her, try to remember the good times. If you wish to share your feelings and memories, we are here for you.
Lindaru