It's the stone queen here, now friendly one...the mods changed my name. Anyway, in a way, I'm sort of in the same situation as you. I've been on Prozac for years, and every other anti-dep on the market dating back to 1990. Well, I felt the Prozac wasn't working anymore and asked to switch to something else. That's been over a month ago, and I still haven't started it yet, and no Prozac either. I tried Cymbalta last year, didn't like the side effects.
Anyway, I have a very long history of severe depression dating back to when I was 9 or 10 yrs. old. When I was a child is when all my kidney problems, surgeries, severe pain, etc. started. It wasn't until I was 19 that someone suggested I might be depressed. Ya think??? Everybody thought I was just "down" because of eveything that was going on. Well, it got worse, alot worse. I hate to admit this because of the stigma and everything, but it happened so, I had to have ECT (electro shock convulsive therapy). My parents put me in the psych ward because of my "suicidial tendencies and actions". A lot of my depression after that was due to nobody wanting to treat my pain seriously, only after a surgery, than nothing else.
Well, I was 30 when finally a PM doc agreed to take me on. I'm 36 now and feel myself "slipping". I know my pain is not being very well controlled (need med adjustment) and the fact I'm not taking any anti-dep isn't helping. I don't know what's wrong with me!! I KNOW I have to be on some sort of anti-dep, but, I can't find it in me to take that freaking pill. I know, part of this is my mind telling me I don't need it, but I know I do. I just need to take it!! My thoughts are bad, very bad...remember, I have my Glock in the house. I don't think I'm that bad, yet.
God, I hate this feeling!!! On top of my "usual" pain problems, I'm having other issues that are physical. Don't won't to go into any detail, but a possibility of cancer. As if my only failing kidney isn't enough to deal with.
I'm so sorry for hijacking your thread, Izzy, I just needed to get this off my chest for a while, ya know?? Anyway, I'm really sorry for this post, ok?? Bye for now!!
P.S. My husband knows me better than I know myself. I just looked at my Glock....no ammo. I wasn't going to use it (on myself), I just wanted to go to the range. Somehow, just makes me feel better.
Last edited by friendly_one; 11-01-2007 at 11:04 AM.
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Yo, Friendly One,
I am terrified to have a gun at my home. There can be some deep, dark mood swings with depression. Also, I want to add, that I am taking Cymbalta as well. I was told it would help with pain, but NO. Also, if you stop taking it, I anyway, get really depressed, and find reasons for living difficult.. But, you got to keep pluggin' away... right?
You know, I feel the SAME way...I have the script at the pharmacy for me, and I dont want to deal with the same ole crap from other AD's. Im not ANYwhere nor would I ever be, to where I would harm myself, so the tun's 'o guns we have are no threat to me...
Theraputically, sure, I can go to the range, but I usually dont unless I have to qualify or Ive gotten something new that I want to get familiar with. Dont get me wrong...I stay on top of it, and my hubs goes religiously every Fri. nite. I go maybe every two weeks....
Back to topic...I really have enjoyed everyone's posts here, and IM still sfraid to try it. Honestly, my doc is gone until Jan. and I can get ahold of him by his cell and he always picks up or calls right back, but I think I want to wait until hes back. Ive had the WORSE luck with side effects, as Ive stated.
I need to get it together, though. Its my off season, and IM being TOO lazy...And I know its that IM depressed. Thanks for the post, Ill catch you guys later!
I had uterine cancer about 2 yrs ago. They took it out and left me one ovary. Im fiine...I hope and wish the same for you. Im here for you, girl, if you need anything, seriously...Ive been there.
Does anyone have problems with either a breaking out or blister type lesions from taking Cymbalta or Lyrica?? I have been on both of these medications and have had acne type lesions for the past 2-3 weeks and not sure why or which medication is causing this. Has anyone out there experienced any of these problems?? I take both of these meds for chronic back pain and have tried to decrease the Lyrica to see if that will help but my pain increases greatly. I would appreciate any feedback you might have. Thanks!!
I definitely would try the Cymbalta. It does seem to help with drepression and has helped with pain as well which definitely can cause lots of depression if you have chronic pain.
I am new here, but have been taking 30mg of Cymbalta for 2 weeks, then doc increased it to 60mg a few days ago. I called the Pharmacist, because I am very tired, and feel sort of "itchy" keep putting lotion on, my skin feels super-sensitive, and I have a bad headache. The Pharmacist said that is normal, when increasing meds, and to give it about 5 more days, I also am on *****n at night, 10mg. and xanex 0.25 prn. I am not sure if its the *****n or the Cymbalta, but I have wild nightmares, so bad that I have had my husband hide my car keys, and we set the alarm on the door, so it will beep if I try to go outside. Told the pharmacist about it too, he said its probly the *****n, but if I dont take it I cant get any sleep, due to pain from fibro and depression. is anyone else having such a hard time? I took lexapro for years, but it finally dident work anymore, its like my body gets too used to meds and I have to switch. I am glad I can come here and read about other peoples issues, makes me feel not so lonely. thanks to all. Alicia in Iowa