ms1...I SO applaud your will-power, and I will be praying for you.

Did you mean "Tramadol" (generic Ultram), or Trazadone (for sleep/anxiety)? I suggest that you try heat and 800mg of ibuprofen (Advil). Honestly, nothing is going to give you the kind of relief a narcotic would, but I'm sure people with your condition (and mine) find ways to cope, and you can too, if you really set your mind to it. What about long-acting narcotics (like the Fentanyl patch)? They would be less likely to give you a "high" feeling, that you're so afraid of getting addicted to, yet they would keep your pain level down. Maybe I'm completely off-base, but I just wanted to throw in my 2 cents. Again, you'll be in my prayers, as I know you'll do what is right for you. Keep us posted!!!