Thank you for the support Chrissy. I was getting a little worried since you haven't posted much recently but with all that you have to do it's a miracle that you push yourself to just get through the day. Now you need to step up tomorrow and really tell the PM doc just how much the pain is effecting and what your pain levels really are throughout the day. I know you are still worried especially if he might mention Methadone but you really need to do what needs to be done to get your pain under control. Hopefully, he will let you try the patch and then we could be patch buddies.
I should have realized about the Effexor becuase I did have issues the last time that I tried it. I thought this time might be different. Hmmm doing the same thing over again and expecting different results.

I should beat myself in the head for not thinking.

However, I wasn't thinking clearly. I was hurting so bad after Lisa left me and moved out. I was so down and depressed and just wanted to NOT feel that way especially when the "really bad" thoughts started to weigh on me. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and hopefully things will go good with this PM doc.
Brian