Just wanted to update you. My primary's office called this a.m. and I have to go over to the office today and give yet another urine specimen. They said the results from the one 2 weeks ago was "inconclusive".
I am so fed up with this office, I could spit! I can read between the lines. When they say inconclusive, it's usually an excuse to cover up their consistant screw-ups. They probably lost the last one or it got botched or mixed up with some poor other soul who is sitting at home, waiting and worrying, like me! How difficult can it be to find out if a person has kidney damage or not!
I just want to get this part over with, so I can find a new primary and not have to deal with these incompetent idiots again!! For someone who is trying to treat my high blood pressure, they are sure not helping! I am not even going to take my BP right now, because I know it won't be good!
I am just at the end of my rope right now. If it was possible, I'd love to have my PM take over all of my health care. He seems to be the only doctor that has a brain in his head AND a heart. I know I've been asking for this a lot lately, but your prayers would be so much appreciated. Thank God for all of you. I don't even want to tell my husband about this. I already feel guilty about the fact that I have not been much help around here. Between the new BP meds and having to take my Xanax every day, just so I won't spike my BP, I've been a slug.
It was beautiful, weather-wise this weekend and I know he wanted to get out and do something, even grocery shopping. The weekends are always "our time" together. And he spent the whole weekend going out running the errands that I usually do during the week. Sometimes I just get so disgusted with myself. I'm not asking for a miracle, just some of my life back! You would think, after all these years, I'd be used to this. I feel like I did way back when I was first having the pain and going from doctor to doctor, just trying to find someone to tell me what was wrong...Why, at 38 years old, I felt like I was 83!
Anyway, sorry for the rambling rant. I'm trying so hard to be positive, but I feel like I'm falling apart. Physically and emotionally. Thank you all for letting me have a place to get this all out. I'll let you know when I get the results back from this one.....IF I ever do. God Bless, cmpgirl
so sorry you are being put thru all this. geez,lets treat a condition then exascerbate the heck out of it for the patient. cmp,if you have not yet done this i really think it needs to be done. obtain ALL of your ongoing medical records from every single doc that has even layed hands on you so you can just read thru everything yourself. this would include all test results and the docs clinic notes that they make on you after every visit. these clinic notes can really tell you alot about just what any given docs impressions of you and your conditions are.
you are just really being given the run around here and it shouldn't be happening. you also really just need to keep copies of all your own test results. i would love to know just what 'inconclusive" actually means there too. you just really need to know what was in those labs they did and exactly what was not within the norm ranges. looking at your own results really does help you to stay on top of things,believe me. if i didn;t do this for myself and my son every six months or so(test results i obtain right away tho) i would seriously be totally lost. just getting all this stuff will at least give you some of your feeling of control back,trust me. i am pretty sure you are feeling like no real control here right now? this will help.
just who is asking you to come in for the UA? is this a primary doc? if it is you really do need a new one,soon. these people have run you ragged just trying to Dx some pretty straight forward stuff. it just shouldn't be this hard ya know? you DO deserve better than you have been getting.
i would make some phone calls today to just get that ball rolling on obtaining ALL your own medical records and test results. all you have to do is just call the places you were seen,ask them to send you out a release of information to obtain all medical records. you simply sign it and send it back and specifically ask for ALL records including test results,then in about a week or so,the records will start showing up in your mailbox.
this will give you at least some sense of being back in control over things again. believe me, i know that feeling all too well. when there is so much going on around you in any medical situation that you simply cannot control,you will eventually start feeling somewhat victimized by the system,this can just lead to a whole lot of other issues. trying to stay on top of things will just give you more power over your own healthcare hon. you just don't 'feel' in your head,quite as helpless. always remember,these people are working for YOU,not the other way around. its just very easy to lose sight of that when we are feeling too overwhelmed by things.
i would start making some phone calls today cmp. hopefuly you can just get in ,get the tests run and get it done. then at least you will have a much clearer idea of where you are at and what your next steps should be. ya just gotta hang in there hon.but DO get those records. i really wish i could do more to help with your situation cmp. just keep us posted on all things you. marcia
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I came across your post,(actually checking on my friend Feelbad) and thought I'd add my 2 cents--
You sound so depressed...we can all relate to that. I was also depressed recently for many reasons similar to yours...My wife told me to get out of the house, and into the sunshine for a while--natural Vit. D--most people are low in D during the dark days of winter..Especially in upstate NY ! --I started taking 1200mg of vit D, and sitting in the sun for 20-30 minutes, whenever it's out, just to relax---It's worked like a charm---Try it, what have you got to lose ?? Don't let life get you down...there are lots of good days ahead...
Feel better...Doug
PS--I'd change Dr.s if I were you---as many times as you have to, until you're happy with him/her.
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Don't worry about venting, we are here to listen... Most of us get in a similar situations and need some support too.
I know how it feels when you have to deal with heartless people. Unfortunatelly it happens for most of us. The worse part when you meet them in a Dr's offices. Been there, done that. And many times I would say same thing: I am done, I never go there again....
I feel for you, but still try to take it easy, you know what stress does to BP - not good, honey.
My prayers with you.... I hope will be a better day for you...
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