O, Steve, I can't agree more - you are absolutely right.
But the thing is: when he put me on LA meds he said that now i will not require BT as much and it's better on my system. So I got an idea that I have to take less pills than before. I like to communicate with my Drs (usually), but i did not want to sound needy or to be interested in BT before even trying LA first. Wrong thinking, ha?
Instead of asking him what exactly does he mean, i got into my head that taking LA means NO or almost NO BT. I checked on Internet about Oxy and how addictive this is, I got very uncomfortable taking it and fear not to get addicted even though I am very responsible person, but things can happen to anybody.
He also said that if LA will work well, I don't have to take BT at all. I read so many posts here and checking with people how many BT they are on. Usually it's like 2-4 for mostly... So I thought that is what I approximately have to do. Very silly and inmature from me not to confirm it with him.
That is why when I told him on Tuesday that I try my best to take no more than 2-4 a day, he was surpised.. and told me i can take up to 8 BT.
My question to you... If I took before LA about 8 Percocets 20/650 each a day - what is the reason of LA if I still will take same amount as BT?
That is why this confusing to me... I hope you understand where I am coming from...
While ago I told a story how I went to see my surgeon and met a man in his waiting room: his hands were shaking, eyes were looking like he is very crazy or very high; he did not talk, he screamed saying that his *&$ Dr gave him prescription for only 60 pills, meanwhile he is in lot of pain after 9 spinal surgeries and so on.... I got so scared looking at him, felt so bad for him.
When nurse told him if he does not leave they will call police - he left; nurse apologized for him and said that he is very bad addict with bad spinal history and asks for more and more meds...
Well...
Since than I am even more careful with meds; each time I take, I think of him - how crazy this is? He was the first person I met who was high and high from it.
Well, now at least I feel better that I have DRs approval for taking more BT.