Need some advice while I am here, so will try and keep it short and sweet. Basically 2 1/2 years ago July 06 I fell down a flight of outdoor cement steps at home and shattered right leg tib/fib open bone blood all over step. Had metal rod put in (also broke left index finger), healing took 3 months to get a weight baring, had 4 other surgeries since 2 finger, 2 leg plus they put a Greenfield filter in me due to me being a lil overweight and not getting the weight baring status right away. While I was being treated the whole first year through the surgeries and original PT I was on either Vicodin or Percocet, both which got me through the horror - they used a shot of morphine on me when the surgeon got the bright idea to manually manupulate my index finger in ER to try and get it too move again - well he rebroke it doing so and it doesn't move now is stuck and no one seemed to think I had a malpractice case... anyone thankfully other than being non-useful to me and causing me annoyance as in not being able to open things easily and use my hand to grip, the finger barely causes me pain - every now and then a light throb, especially when weather is bad or changes. Leg however is a totally different story. Was with a PM Dr. for over 6 months he had me on Opana ER, Cymbalta and a muscle relaxer. The pain was never fully taken away from this combo, but I tolerated it for the most part but he also had me signed out of work on FMLA and I did 3x a week PT. During that time a foot dr. discovered I had a severe fallen arch that no one had caught yet, needless to say the medication made me a zombie and I became so unmotivated I lost my life to the point my family had to get involved and go with me six months down the line after I was losing my job, to ask this Dr. when does he stop just writing scripts and try and figure out why I am in so much pain. Needless to say Dr. got ****** off and then just signed me back in, went for another opinion and that Dr. said I shouldn't return to work and the difference in opinion and Metlife not granting me long term disability from short term disability ended with me losing my job. Second opinion did an EMG and MRI, they found slight to moderate nerve damage in leg and felt in the end it could be the regeneration of the nerves at this point causing me the discomfort and pain. I still limp however and now my knee seems out in my good (left leg) making it hard to get up from a sitting position. I am so fustrated and sick of Drs. I am paying through the nose for Cobra thinking I needed it, saw a neurologist who really just sent me to a new pain management Dr. who from first impression saw me for 15 mins and sent me out with a book of perscriptions including what seems like duplicates: ultram er, tramadol, methadone, celebrex and pretiq. I am so afraid to fill these at this point since the last set just made me a zombie and made me never leave my house, sleep all day and not even have motivation to see friends and family. I do not want to go back to that state again. I have been up all night because I am having a bad attack of pain that feels like ants with razor sharp claws are crawling up and down my lower leg at a very slow speed to induce absolute torture to me, not allowing me to get comfortable at all. Overall since I had stoped the medication from the first bout and only took left over vicodins as needed - maybe every few days when the pain was bad - I got more done during that month, was so much of a happier person, getting back to my old self and getting stuff done with less pain - even my friends and family noticed the huge improvement. Yet tell a PM that, and for some odd reason they won't perscribe the one thing that actually works for me, but they'll give me all these crazy pills like methadone and opana. I just can't understand it. I have no history at all of addiction and I just don't trust doctors anymore. I don't know if I should fill this new set of scripts (luckily my best friend is a pharmacist, but she said the trimadal and the ultram was the same drug, which makes me wonder why do I need both? and then makes me question if this doctor is even good and doing the right thing) and just see if they work, or just try and go see more doctors. One actually said to me he wouldn't perscribe pain meds but I am lucky to have my leg after the accident I suffered. I mean seriously what is that?? I just want to get back to work and to a normal life and not have to suffer after just a few hours of slight activity. I don't want to have to get out of pain by only means of going into a comatose state of unmotivation and nothing but sleep. There just has to be someone out there that has some sort of answers because I am really losing faith in the medical community at this point. I am only in my early 30s, I'm sick of feeling like I am 80. Any advice from other people that have been through it? Or if there are any doctors that check this site out that can give some direction and a glimmer of hope? I really appreciate it!