ihavtwins

Hi guys, I have been lurking but havent posted in a while. I am in the same amount of pain as usual, I did find a good pain doc for now but I worry all the time I would lose him. I have to drive an hour to see him as there are no good docs around here. I started working 30 hours a week which leaves me no time at all to catch up on here or my email. My pain doc is happy I am trying to work so he has upped my meds to keep me working.

I saw my surgeon's office and they had me get 2 more tests, a new discogram, and myelogram, they were really hard on me, and I developed severe spinal headaches from the myelogram.

I also had a trial implant of the stimulater put in by my pain mgmt doctor which I really didnt want to do because I felt as if I was agreeing to be in pain the rest of my life. I went ahead with it and my body rejected it. I had spinal headaches so bad, the doc had to go in 2 days later and remove the implant and give me a blood patch, taking blood from my arm and injecting it into the spinal canal.

So here I am almost a year later, with no forward progress at all but lots of things tried.

I am going to see the surgeon on Tuesday to follow up with the discogram results. She said they will either be doing another fusion or possibly just going in and taking out my bracket and cleaning up in there , more of an exploratory.

Either way, I worry I will lose my job, and with the economy the way it is, i really need this job. But, the pain controls me. Most days all I can do after work is crawl into the bed and eat cereal for dinner. The twins are old enough now to cook and help out more, but I can tell they are tired of it. LOL

I have hired a licensed massage therapist who comes to my house once a week and that has been a great investment. My insurance doesnt cover massage but it really helps. If I lose my job, I wouldnt be able to afford it but as long as I am working, he will come once a week.

I do try to get on here to see how everyone is doing. It is nice to hear from you too!

Jen