Warm wishes to everyone. I'm so thankful to feel I have such great friends here who understand COMPLETELY what CP is and what it can do to a person and their quality of life. I just found out today that I'll be going thru my 2nd pain pump trial next Wed., 7/16. I'm scared to death after the horrible time I had with the lst trial. Of course, my PM dr. did not talk with ME (what's new there - he never talks WITH his patients) but the girl at his office who scheduled the trial said it would be the same as before, but that he may try more morphine or another drug to see if I get a longer period of relief.
I know I've complained so much about my PM doc's treatment plan in my situation, snd I do wish I could get another one, but at this late stage and being in the middle of the trials, I just don't feel I could handle going thru all new stuff again. My pain has become so unbearable with the tolerance to the oxy, that I can't deal with anything else right now. Every day is an ordeal just trying to bear the pain. If dr. thinks the morphine pump is my answer, I'm just too tired and drained from the pain, to argue anymore about his treatment agenda. I still think he's out for the insurance money (that's a whole other story), but if the morphine pump will work, it will be an answer to my prayers.
Sorry, I didn't mean to ramble, it's just that the past two weeks my pain has tripled (since having the unsuccessful lst trial). I just wanted to ask of all of you wonderful folks to please pray for me that this trial will be a success and I can move on to the permanent pump and finally get some pain relief from this last year.
I know how understanding you all are when it comes fo CP so I just wanted to let you know the lastest on my situation. Thanks so much for listening, for being there for me and for caring. Much Love, Lindao1
[This message has been edited by lindao1 (edited 07-10-2003).]