i am really getting tired of chronic pain!! - Pain Management Message Board

blankaflower · 09-26-2003, 03:31 PM

i am really getting tired of my chronic pain.i am a 32 year old female.and i have debilitating migraines with cluster headaches.i have had these headaches for years but they have been debilitating for the last 1 year.i can not control them and i have tried everything you can possibly name.i am so sick of taking medications that dont work and i am so tired of finding new drugs.i am really most tired of taking medication period!!i am sorry but i have to vent.its just an ongoing day bye day nightmare..i just feel like a prisoner in my own body.i used to be so happy ,and i used to travel around the world.now i just deal with pain.and i think my husband is getting tired of dealing with me.i am so so sad.i know alot of you here deal with terrible pain every day.and its really the only place i can come and write this and someone will understand.and maybe give me a smile..thanks

LOVEQ · 09-26-2003, 03:38 PM

I really don't know what to say to you. all I can say is I truly know how you feel with the chronic pain thing. We all do thats why we are here, just to support each other in times like these.

I know right now things seem real bad, but just know that there are people out there that no where you are with you pain and are praying for you.

Much Love,

LoveQ

grizzk62 · 09-26-2003, 04:29 PM

Blankaflower,

We all know exactly where you are at hun. We have all been there and in some ways still there where you are at. This dailey battle is no fun. I and us all know that its never going to get better than where we are at. Even with meds. This disease that we all have called chronic pain. We all have and it doe's suck over what we call our memory of my former life before PAIN. Hang in there. Some times we have to tie a know at the end of the rope and hang on. It will get better. I have been dealing with Chronic Pain now for 18yrs. The pain doe's get worse. And I have to say the meds have gone up to over those 18yrs. And yes how I percieve pain has changed as well. Do take care and by all means keep posting it really helps.......

Matt

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mamaslittlehelper · 09-27-2003, 01:53 AM

Blankaflower...I know exactly what you mean about being sick of the pain! I have TMJ and only have been messing with it for about 5-months, but have had alot of other health problems over the last year! It gets to a point where your like "OK, when is this going to end?"...but there is no answer! I was always such a happy person, but can't seem to find anything to make me happy anymore (at least not like I used to be!)and I know it is putting alot of stress on my marriage too! I am trying very hard to get back into some of the things that used to make me happy...painting, crafting and decorating my house...visiting with friends...walking my dog, etc! Also working on finding some things for me and the hubby to do together as we also have a teenager who doesn't want to "hang with us" much anymore so we are left with alot of free time! Getting your health back is important too as I have kinda' let myself go since I have been sick...if you are healthy the pain might not hurt as bad too! Well, hope this helps you in some way...guess I need to take my own advice and work on being happier and healthier too! Remember too, that bellylaughs and sunshine are great for the soul...try to get plenty of each! Good luck to you and TC!

turtleeni2 · 09-27-2003, 04:56 AM

I totally know how ya feel, Blankaflower. As I am sure everybody else here does.....you are not alone dearie.

I am so tired of trying to get my mind off the pain, all the while trying to make sure I don't take b/t meds as long as ABSOLEUTELY NECESSARY so not to worry about if I will run out, or having to take them at least every day will not make my doctor happy

Also, I am sick and tired of when one thing seems to be ok, there's always "something else" coming right around the corner. Like, ok I feel ok and things may be turning around today for the better and then ...lalala...bam! MONSTER HEADACHE or very bad crampiness all of a sudden then nasty bout of diarrhea (sorry to gross anyone out, but I HATE that feeling). So, you take something to remedy it all and you start feeling pretty good again with maybe a little bit of pain popping in and out every so often all the while trying to GET MY MIND OFF OF IT.....then I get my period and cramps and headaches and remedy that....then lather, rinse and repeat with the chronic pain constantly knocking to come back.

Sorry if I kinda freaked out, it's just that I am getting very angry and frustrated as original poster and the rest of ya's do

It's just SO HARD most of the time to even be able to let everything go and just be happy and laugh like we used to.

Well, I am in insomnia again (not having too much pain though~~at a 3-4 atm), and just rambling I guess. I been doing alot of that lately and so sorry to have to put you all through this.

I honestly thing I would be worse off, though, if I hadn't found you guys and these boards. I mean it too

You guys are great and I love the way most of us can communicate and go out of your ways to just be there for support and advice. I am also VERY grateful to have met Kim32, who is going through the SAME EXACT thing as me. I had been searching for many many months to just find ANYTHING, just ANYTHING at all that would help me know that I am not the only one and that it's not all in our head and that this pain is real and is a result of some mis-hap during surgery. I am so glad I found her and you all here at these boards!!!

OK, I am really rambling on now, but I just wanted you all to know how I feel

And in spite of my rant, I have managed to end this on a very happy note

Have a great weekend and hope you all find some relief in your pain

**HUGS**