Hi Angela Tinkerbell45 here i read yourpost and i wanted to cry. I KNOW you must really be suffering as you have been through ALOT and without the support of your husband but as the others say the shoe will be on the other foot one day and i am very thankful that you had your 17 year old son to help you i know he was a lifesaver!! PLEASE go back to your dr or find you a different PM dr and explain what is going on and get your pain meds back you ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY sound like you need them as you are having NO quality of life without them. Please take care and feel free to write anytime. Until next time, Tinkerbell45
The following user gives a hug of support to tinkerbell45: Tryin 4 help (08-04-2011)
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I agree with back....it did take a lot of courage to post an apology. Thank you for it. And, I just have to tell you.....my name is Angela, not Malissa. But, you can call me that if you want to...LOL.
Tinkerbell (love that name!),
I do think that this methadone is going to work for me. I just have to get to the right dosage. He started me at 20 mg a day and increased it to 30 mg a day. I couldn't tell it was helping at all because of this damn abscess! But, I am getting the feeling back so the numbness and swelling have went down some and the pain is much better.....hopefully the antibiotics are working!! Once I get this thing healed, then I can get back to seeing how this methadone works for me.
That is something that I need to work on - accepting my limitations. That has been very difficult on me. I used to clean, clean, clean and keep my house "perfect." And, my yard was perfect, too. I can't do it all now and it "kills" me. Plus, I have a 3 year old who is very active. I am trying to get done what i can and accept the things that I can't get done. It's hard for me, but I'm trying. I feel like I burden my 18 year old too much. My other son (16) doesn't want to help much so a lot gets put on my 18 year old. But, he says that everything is fine, and he knows that I hurt, and he wants to help me.
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The following user gives a hug of support to Tryin 4 help: Pepperpot1808 (08-04-2011)
Angela, my friend. You have every right to be on this board, especially if this is where the Mods sent you and want you to post. Nobody has the right to judge you are imply that your not welcome here and should move on, except a Mod.
I hope you a stick around, because your pain journey is most likely going to continue for a while and you need support just like everyone else. I enjoyed meeting you over on the Addiction Board and sincerely hope you hang around here as the majority of folks will understand your actions and not have a problem with your posting. If some folks feel intimidated or scared by your posts there's a simple fix, STOP reading them.
I hope that your getting some relief these days, I know it's hard when your doc has you in trial meds phase.
I’d like to apologize if I scared anybody about methadone. I was just writing what my personal experience with it was. It helps many people; I know. My sister would have died long before she did without it. I guess I should do some research first before I say one thing is the “cause” of another. I truly meant no harm. I just wanted Angela to be leery because I do not think it is harmless and the clinic in my area seemed to just want me “locked in for life”, regardless.