Re: I don't know what to do anymore
What you are experiencing is called agoraphobia, I have it also with my panic, it didnt develop till over a period of time of avoidance behaviors, until my boundaries are very, very limited. But I do try, somedays I can't do my exposure therapy, sometimes I do with discomfort and slight panic, other times with no panic (as long as it isnt too far from my comfort zone), but it is baby steps in being comfortable with a zone, and slowly expanding it. Just this am, I had to go to my son's school to drop off some books, the bank, the grocery, it took 2 hours. My husband drove, but I was chewing nails, jumping out of my skin, had jelly legs and wanted to run from the grocery while there, but I stuck it out. After one hour, the panic/nervousness subsided that the remaining hour I was out, I had no problem. I understand what you are going through. Your basically controlling your panic by not leaving the safety of your comfort zone. The longer you stay there, the harder it is to get out. Please find a good "support person", to start slow with you, perhaps a walk up and down your street, that is how I started, as I used to not be able to get 2 houses away without the panic coming on, but I built it up gradually. Im by no means cured of the agoraphobia, but making more progress than scared to leave my yard for a panic attack.