I was just like you!!!!!!! I could not accept that what was wrong with me was a panic disorder! I couldn't believe that this could cause me so much discomfort and FEAR. This may sound weird but I have tried meds and I am still on them but in the process I went to a hypnotherapist and I feel great! The first panic attack I had after I had seen her My mind told me don't be scared you have felt this before, ignore it, breath, do something to take your mind off of this nonsense! where as before my mind would say...your dying, help!!! go to the e.r( I have done that 3 times ) RUN, something is wrong.
I am serious, It helps to just accept it and I truly belive you have to accept this as part of you before you can get better. Don't worry you will get there I have been having them for 6 years now, it started when I was 20.
we are here for you!!!! take care and you will be fine!!!
P.s before I got help I was very depressed!