I've been suffering from panic disorder, ocd, depression, and well anxiety for a few years now...I've recently stopped taking my zoloft, and have been zoloft free for about 2months now!
I still take lorazapam when needed (which lately has been quite often!)
I had a few questions....
I've been noticing that I have this feeling of "doom" constantly. Like I fear that something bad is going to happen...CONSTANTLY! I fear that i'm going to "snap" "lose control" or like everything will just be going fine and I'll just get this sick feeling....For instance the other day I was getting ready to go out shopping with my friends, and I was looking in the mirror doing my hair or something... and well i just got this AWFUL feeling like i was going to lose it. Then i felt extremely depressed...Then freaked out because i was wondering why this was happening. Does anyone else get this.
Or today for instance I was sitting with my little cousins (2 years old) and talking/playing...We were having a great time until that feeling of doom just came over me. ugh. then my mind was racing i couldn't concentrate i worried about losing control then felt extremely depressed and hopeless.
It seems like when everything is going great for me, I feel increasingly uneasy. Is this the panic disorder? Or something else? Maybe the OCD? ugh. I've been trying to identify what exactly is causing these feelings...but well it's hard.
Tomorrow I'll be leaving for a vacation in a tropical warm place...and for some reason I just feel sick uneasy ect about it. I mean I want to be excited but instead I get this sick feeling. Like i can't have fun or something. ugh
ALSO I've noticed I'm extremely irritable! The littlest things can set me off...ANNOY me... to the point where i will completely shut out and get stuck obsessing in my head. I get in these AWFUL moods. i have no idea why....then i can't talk or won't really talk (i'll just be really short with whoever is around me) The littlest things annoy me lately... Haha including the way my boyfriend talks....(weird slang he'll use sometimes, and well i shouldn't get sooo irritated..i mean i understand why it irritates me but i take it to another extreme in my head) and then i worry about losing control ect... UGH! exhausting! anyone else relate?? ugh i hate feeling like this!
(oh yes and i've started this new birth control that is supposed to somewhat help with this! YAZ??) anyone heard of this?