I am desparate
I have a whole 2 years of things hppening to me but i wont explain it all. I have not been well but this past while I have been doing better and thinking the worst is over. Well instead of getting too much into it because my life is a long story I will tell you about the past 6 days. Last week I started feeling weak and not well, it went on for a few days then I start getting this weird turning feeling in my stomach and its so hard to describe but it feels like a rush of burning from my tummy to my arms and whole body. It comes on fast and very intense and sometimes can last a while to the point that I think I am going to die. I just cry and freak out like I am going nutts and the feeling is nothing Like I have ever imagined somebody could feel like. Today I was in the car and my dad was driving me home with my 2 kids and he was talking to me but I flipped out and told him I didnt want to talk I felt sick, funny and the talking was making it worse ( burning rush) etc...... I dont know what this is and why this is happening I am so sick of it. I have delt with this for 2 years but tday being the worst in a long time. I am sad and angry because I have 2 young children and I cant be their mom like I need to be and nobody knows what is wrong with me. I do have hashimotos (hypothyroid) but it seems no matter whether my thyroid levels are okay or not my body does this intense crazy thing. Its weird because I almost feel it coming on a few dayse before when I dont feel great then it basically goes nutts like I just explained. I have researched and researched what this could be because I dont know where else to turn. I guess what I am asking is does any of this sound like it is in my head or stress? anxiety Panic? I dont know anymore. Thank you for reading!!!
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