Does anyone feel like thier doctor does not care?
Hi everone. I have been dealing with panic disorder for 13 years. My panic attacks started when I was 18 years old and for years I just thought I had a brain tumor until I got diagnosed. I have seen 2 CBT therapist and have been on and off different meds. I always take myself off of pills because I feel that I can get through this on my own with breathing, positive thinking etc.. I have had panic attacks that I can get through on my own with no medication. I just breathe and tell myself I am ok and this feeling will pass. Lately, that whole idea has been shot out the window. My panic attacks have been awful. My doctors for some reason hate to give me Xanax, the only thing that helps me. I am not dependent on it at all. In fact, a months prescription, lasted me almost a full year. Just knowing that I have it on me sometimes helps. So anyway, I have not seen a doctor in over a year for this because I do not want to be on a daily medication, and evertime I go, I get the same things told to me. The past 3 weeks have been really bad so I decided to make an appointment to make sure nothing else was going on. They gave me an appointment with somebody i had never seen which made me feel a bit better because I thought this one would be somewhat understanding and would listen to me. My appointment was this past Friday and ofcourse this doctor could care less. I was in the midst of a panic attack when I was there and felt like I was going to pass out, shaking, sweating etc.. My blood pressure was really high and what do I get? She told me I needed to deal with the fact that I am going to have to be on medication for the rest of my life. No bloodwork was done. I made it a point to her that I have had alot of chest pain but she could care less and did nothing but listen to my heart. I know the chest pain is most likely from the panic attacks, but still as you all know, it is a scary feeling. I asked her if she could give me at least a months supply of Xanax just to take as needed. She gave me a prescription for 10 pills, the lowest dose. Then she tells me I need to try a different med seeing as every other pill I tried stopped working after a while. So now I am on my 3rd day of Buspar and I do not want to be on it. This is the 5th doctor I have seen for my panic disorder and I feel like I am being shut out. It was like I could not get a word in at all on Fiday. I had a whole list of questions and statements in my head that I was going to ask and say, but she literally blew me off and I wasnt able to get anything answered. So I left there after being in the room for no more then 10 minutes with a prescriptions for Buspar and 10 Xanax. Do I need to keep searching for doctors? Does this happen to anyone else? Am I being stubborn for not wanting to be on medication? Does anyone have any suggestions? Thanks in advance.