I feel for you. You know what. I am right there with you. I have severe anixety/panic disorder. It's always something with me. Seriously I feel like I am falling apart too. I am searching for a therapist or counselor. I don't want to go on medication. Do you take anything for it?
I have alot on my plate. We may lose our house due to the ecomony, my girls are in Mexico on vacation with their dad, (Worried big time about that!) I have a house guest from Scotland that I am entertaining, I don't like my job
I could go on. And ya my alleriges are bad and I have acid reflux and I am schedule for an endoscopy. They will take a camera down in there and look after sedating me. I am scared to death.
All that to say I lay in my bed...worrying about things I can't change...feeling out of control. Wanting God to reach down and touch me and take away the dark feeling and fear. Today I got in the shower and let the hot water roll down me and just bawled my eyes out..just sobbing and shaking. I want to feel normal again with out fears and disorders.
I do understand you, I really do. I am afraid of germs Big time! I work at an elementary school. I have had 3 colds since September. Each one lasting pretty much until the next one started. I am afraid to go to my job. I am tired of being exposed to all the germs. When I return after the 1st of the year I am fear of getting the stomach flu or anything else. I have put in my resignation and said I would only work until they can replace me. This is very real to me. I know it is for you. I will keep you in my prayers!
Write me anytime on here! Hugs!