I am new here and just needed to find someone who can understand what I am going through. Hopefully, someone here can...
I am a 30 year-old woman who has on and off suffered from anxiety. I can remember clearly being much younger (as early as 9 years old) and becoming fixated or obsessed over something I could not control and being able to ONLY think about that thing. I have always been able to overcome it and live an otherwise normal life when my anxiety doesn't strike. However, lately, it's been on and FULL FORCE. I also find that my attacks happen a lot more frequently.
Anyway, my latest issue, which has always been an underlying issue for me, is a fear of getting sick. Any little pain or ache that I have I immediately assume is something very serious or dangerous. I tend to get a little lightheaded from time to time and so I have really started to limit what I do and the places I go to (almost like agoraphobia) for fear that I will get sick while I am out somewhere. I also am constantly at the doctor's office looking for reassurance that NOTHING is wrong but recently I've even been questioning whether the doctor is right or not. I recently was diagnosed with IBS after having some issues going to the bathroom and had to go through an endoscopy and a colonoscopy which also showed I had H Pylori. I just finished my treatment for that but now I am worried that I have something more serious and am constantly looking for symptoms!!!
When I try to talk to myself logically and tell myself that NOTHING is wrong and that I am over-reacting I immediately get nervous and think to myself, "well what if I'm NOT over-reacting and something IS wrong and this is my body's way of telling me?" and the vicious cycle starts all over again
I really feel so helpless at this point. I am a newlywed and ever since our wedding I feel like I do nothing but cry and "feel sick".
I don't know what to do. I am seeing a therapist and that is helping but I really feel like this is spiraling out of control AND FAST.
Is there anyone out there who knows what I am going through and can offer advice?
Thank you so much...