Re: Panic attacks holding me back!
ExtremelyRight -- I can't imagine what it must be like for you. You are so strong to be able to push through every day. Your persistence is inspiring! Thank you so much for sharing.
dodedoo -- Thank you for letting me know I'm not alone. Starting a job is stressful for everyone but for people with PD and anxiety, starting a new job can be 10,000x harder. Congrats on pushing through and working through your anxiety to get through school and work.
And an update on me: I ended up not going today to the new job. I emailed the HR manager (I wish I had called but I was a little too nervous to talk to her) and told her that for personal reasons I couldn't take the job. It was a combination of PD, anxiety, and the fact that this job would be hitting home on a daily basis. Basically, the job wound entail informing people of foreclosure procedures starting on their house. Two years ago, my family lost their house due to a bad investment. After careful thought, I decided this job may be a daily reminder of my family's struggles.
I'm not going to let any of these setbacks hold me back anymore. I am going to get help from anyone and everywhere. I plan on seeing my therapist and psychiatrist more, yoga at least three times per week, cardio three times per week, acupuncture, spiritual healing, prayer, meditation, and a healthier diet. I hate this anxiety and I plan on kicking its a**! Who's with me?