Anxiety is a Beast! - Panic Disorders Message Board

*Raina* · 09-02-2002, 10:57 AM

Hi All,

After thirty days (almost exactly) my anxiety is creeping back up.

thankfully, it hasnt hit a peak, or gotten worse, thanks to tea and Xanax.
It weird though, everytime i get this way, my eyes feel weird... dry, unfocused, kinda numb. i assume this is allergies, but, i associate it with anxiety since my anxiety comes along with it.
I am feeling really down about my anxiety, and i wish it would simply go away (how many times have we all said that?

).
i just needed to vent and gain some support- i feel really alone when this all comes up again... i dont know anyone is RL who has anxiety/panic, it hard to relate.

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~*~Raina~*~

"That the birds of worry and care fly over your head: This you cannot change; But that they build nests in your hair: This you can prevent." -Chinese Proverb

andreaphilip3 · 09-02-2002, 01:15 PM

raina,

im soo sorry hon. it stinks dont it? i hear ya loud&clear. not sure if ya seen my posts lately, but my anxiety is so high now that when i go for my appts, im forced to be doped up on 1 1/4mg xanax&25mg of atarax just so the doc can fix my back&the past few nights i fear i cant breathe if i dont leave the fan on&sometimes i leave the window open. hang in there sweetie! yr not alone.

*Raina* · 09-02-2002, 01:31 PM

Thanks Andrea- yes, i have read your posts, and i send out my hugs and thoughts for you too.

Anxiety sucks- plain and simple. There is no way to understand it until you have lived it. One of my friends tells me, "Just quit worrying about ____." and i tell her, "Gee, i hadnt thought of that."

Its getting better, but i am still having problems eating, and that is bizaar for me- i like to eat, usually. but, i find that i feel completely sick to my stomach and grossed out if i even think about food...

i am off to get some exercise- hopefully that will help!

thanks!

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~*~Raina~*~

"That the birds of worry and care fly over your head: This you cannot change; But that they build nests in your hair: This you can prevent." -Chinese Proverb

[This message has been edited by *Raina* (edited 09-02-2002).]

andreaphilip3 · 09-02-2002, 04:21 PM

thanks raina&yr right, ya do haveta live it... i guess thats why im lucky that the doc workin on my back is really understanding&soothing when i have a PA with him b/c hes already said he had them in college.

hang in there hon.(((((Raina)))))))) btw- i hear ya about food- when i have to see the dr that REALLY causes Pa's im sick the night b/f&all day the day of the appt&have 2 force myself 2 eat.

bev52 · 09-02-2002, 04:41 PM

Hi Raina,
Really sorry to hear that you're having such a tough time.
The thing w/the eyes-I have that too. When I move my head...feels like my eyes don't move w/it, out of focus,etc. Also, have the nausea something terrible. As soon as my feet hit the floor in the am's, I'm on the 'pot.'

Hope things get better. . .SOON!
(((((Raina/Andrea)))))