l feel crap - Panic Disorders Message Board

niecsey · 09-07-2002, 05:32 AM

hi guess wot me who tells others how to cope with panic????? guess who had one last night after nearly 18 month??? ME....... l feel pathetic

it happened about 2 oclock this morning, it wasnt a massive one, but l felt like l was suffocating, my heart was going crazy and it had all day its still doing it now, im really ----- off

l couldnt lie in bed soon as l lay down that was it l thought im gonna have a heart attack tonight and die im soooo sick of this thought id cracked it, my so has been p----- me off alot lately hes so annoying im just tierd today still got the palpatations, got to tell myself like last time im not putting up with this anymore and i havnt till last night, it wasnt a full blown thing thank god, but it was enough to remind me how far id come, sorry for venting l havnt told none about last night i feel better for off loading here, most of you will know how it feels, il rise above it...................Again

take care all

ps..... has any of you experienced this before, when you get really scared or anxious wotever you get these 'pain' like rushes up either side of your back and it momentarily catches your breath???? or could this be the adrenalin rushes??? ive had 2 of these over thelast 2 weeks last one was about a yr and a half ago thanx

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andreaphilip3 · 09-07-2002, 08:57 AM

so sorry neicy& yes i get tyhat pain too. it feels like heart attack& at night in bed i need air on or gan b/c otherwise i cant breathe.

niecsey · 09-07-2002, 09:52 AM

thanx you my dear friends

it meant so much to me to read your post chrys the feelings mutual you are a wonderful and special lady, andrea l hope your ok and im thinking about you

last nights 'pest' was a moderate attack , i felt l couldnt breath, and my heart.........**** thought id wake up dead

lol(joke u cant wake up dead lol) the 'rushes' scared me most ive only had it happen about half a dozen when im really upset mad angry the like it sort of grips you really fast up both sides of ur back sort of meets for a split second catches your breath and thats basically it l dont like it, it scares me

im determined not to go back to 'attacks' again i promised myself the last time 18 months ago i wasnt gonna put up with it and it did work.....till last night. l feel i can come here because i am amongst people who share and care (the same problem) try tellin ur mates lol

thanx again i am trying very hard today to think of other things etc ps. does anyone wanna kid?? shes doing my head in lol

this is the second time ive wrote this when i posted it i had exceeded my smilies then when i came back it had all gone???!!!! so this post is a bit different to the missing one, ive taken some passion flower supposed to calm your nerves lol il keep popping back to update or to help anyone else if any one has any faith left in me lol, thanx again your all the best take care

andreaphilip3 · 09-07-2002, 01:02 PM

thanksneicey. im thinkin of you as well. my prob is 4 me, stress=panic& my stress level is off the charts!

Karima · 09-07-2002, 05:38 PM

Hi,
I read your post about that pain and thought you were talking about me! I have had everyone suggest this and that as to why..the last one was that the adrenaline rush causes our chest wall muscles to spasm.
I cannot tell you how many times it has sent me to the e.r...only to find out my heart was fine and the doctor tells me to get the stress out of my life...

I love an answer like that. Sometimes even after the stressor is actively gone, our memories throw us a curve ball and we are sitting ducks for another attack.
But the hardest is not having had any panic attacks for a long time, and then have them start up. It's like a ball rolling downhill too once they start...all those familiar symptoms, same pattern and dread.

Personally after 30 some years of this and speaking only for myself, I don't think I will ever be free of it entirely. The recent attacks though were after several years and my agoraphobia can be somewhat predictable. Give me lots of stress and that will bring on the anxiety, which brings on the panic attacks, which brings on the agoraphobia.

Whenever I get to feeling pretty bad about this, I take a good look around at others who are serious and terminally ill....it's then I feel how fortunate I am..