mommyof5

It probably isn't but I know a lot of us over re-act about headaches and migraines (and other ailments)!.

I do want to mention again (it's in my other post) that I'm taking 0.5mg of clonazepam in the a.m. (6:00) and half of that in the evening (0.25mg @ 6:00p.m.) and 100mg zoloft at suppertime (which in my case isaround 9:30p.m. - 10:00 p.m.). My zoloft was raised from 75mg to 100mg about 4 1/2 weeks ago but it didn't seem to be giving me headaches or MIGRAINES - could the side effects have waited 3-4 weeks to kick in????

If you read my other post "migraine meds..." you would know my allergies and period started about the same time, well now my period is finished and the migraine is still here. So do I blame it on the allergies??? I did get the "go ahead" from my doctor to use the fiorinal but I've been using it sparingly (it makes me very speedy), sometimes I'll take 1, sometimes 2 depends on the severity of the migraine. Yesterday I managed on just tylonal and sudafed. The migraine is showing up every day,but at some points in the day it completely disappears.

The worst part I think is that I seem to be waking up with them, rather they are waking me up! Another thing is I'm usually overtired but in the last week I've been overly overtired. (this does happen when I have my period though).

Maybe it's just stress (how do we manage to cope anyway - us anxiety sufferers?). All 4 kids received their report cards on the 10th - all passable or good considering 3 are ADHD, parent/teacher interviews were on the 17th, all was good - even if there was a poor mark or a difficulty they said each of them were putting a good amount of effort into their work. So I SHOULDN'T be stressed in that area.

Finacially(sp) we are broke, we've been nickel and diming it for over 2 months. All bills are paid but There are upcoming things- summer day camp, over $450.00 canadian for 4 kids, which is not all that expensive when you consider it's for 4 kids 4 1/2 days a week from 9:00 - 4:00 (friday is (9:00 - 12:00) but the deadline is May 12th and we don't have the $$.

We own 3 vehicles(sp) (all insured by law in Quebec) but the pick-up truck (1988) which makes us money by snow removal in winter and spring clean-up (raking,etc) and grass cutting in summer needs repairs and the plate expired on March 31st (another $320.00 canadian). Our tiny firefly (1988) which serves for pizza delivery, newspaper deliveries and sears catalog deliveries is broken down and the plate expired Feb.28 (another $255.00 canadian). So what is left - our 1987 caravan (I don't know if anyone remembers that we have 5 kids so we need at least the 7 seats!), the plates on that are okay until sept.30th (phew!) but it needs repairs ( muffler clamp, idles too fast, drums for the back brakes,etc). Well doesn't my husband get pulled over 2 days ago FOR NO REASON (usually he speeds a bit or doesn't make his full stops or doesn't wear his seat belt-it's the law! but this time he was actually behaving!) and the cop starts to point out- the tailpipe is hanging low, the muffler pipe has a hole in it, there is a broken tail light, the light works but the plastic is cracked, the rust holes and some other stuff. Anyway the cop gives him a 48 hour warning to go and have a government safety inspection done to see if the van should even be on the road! Lucky for us it's a long week-end but from my understanding if it doesn't pass the inspection or the repairs are to costly and not worth the value of the ven they take off your plates and give you a sticker to drive it home so you can scrap it or sell it for parts. We are soooooo screwed.

On top of that my visa is maxed out (2,500.00), I owe my mom $650.00 (on her credit card) for different shopping sprees for kids b-days, we are indebted to my neighbour who does the mechanics on the vehicles for about $1000.00 and he is also a very good handyman and did a major renovation for me (creating a much needed bedroom for my eldest dd that was an existing room with screwed up wiring and no walls,etc) so there is another $800.00 I owe him. I've used up all the $ in my kids bank accounts (about $300.00). I also owe $66.00 to daycare for borrowing the fundraising money from the easter chocolates we sold and $48.00 to girl guides for borrowing the fundraising money from the cookies we sold!

There is probably more, like we tend to not buy food if possible, we buy the day old breads, muffins, etc for school lunches, we call the food bank. I feel awful that my kids eat so crappily but they always eat 3 meals a day. That's 2 things that are always done - the kids eat and my bills are paid (except this year for the extras-plates and repairs.

Thanks for letting me vent and I don't like to tell about my $$$ problems or how badly we're doing but maybe by getting it out it will help my migraines???

I really feel desperate, 1 thing good (so far) is I haven't had any panic attacks over this yet!

Oh, I also want to mention that even though my husband is worried also he has no concept of $$$$

Another thing I found (2 days ago) out is my step-mother has 3-6 months to live, she has inflammitory breast cancer, she's 48 I think. We are not close, have only ever met once (she lives in British Columbia) but have been in occasional contact for 23 years (since I was 10).I know I am having feelings around that. I first found out about it in Septmnber but things have just gone really down hill for her, even with Chemo an radiation. She was supposed to have a double mastectomy(sp) but now the drs are saying it has only a 5% success rate in her case. So they're giving up on treatment.

Gosh, I better stop before I get into the other 50% of my life problems.

(Fiorinal also makes me talk a lot, sorry so long!)


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