KariX

Hey sunset! ^_^ I'll try and answer as many of your questions as possible, but I'm sure some of the peeps around here will have better answers for you!

I get tons of symptons, and seem to discover new ones all the time... I still can't believe I could have so many and not be dead on my feet! Mostly I get chest pains, get a bit tingly and cold, get that 'unreal' feeling, get so stressed I go nuts at the slightest little thing and can't get my breath. I know what you're saying about carrying everything in your solar plexus, whenever I do get stressed that's the first thing to hurt usually! Like some 15 stone rugby player in stilettos is dancing on my chest! ^_~ Sometimes it gets a bit too much and I lose hope but never for long... it is caused by me being stressed so I know I can do something to make myself feel better and that alone usually makes me feel better. And whenever I get that unreal/disconnected feeling I feel like I'm going a bit mad... that really is the worst!

I'm sure it can be cured, I just have to work at de-stressing myself. About spiritual ideas... my head used to be full of those, and I used to do tai chi and stuff too, and in the couple of years I was doing that I never got sick! I'm starting to get back into that again, exercise and having some kind of religious aspect in your life are both great for calming you down and making you feel good, so they're definitely things to concentrate on if you wanna get better.

I've been pretty scared by it at times, but when it's been really bad for some weird reason I haven't been afraid... I'm kinda religious so I'm not really afraid of death, but at times I get afraid because it hurts so much. And ****ed off cos I really don't wanna go yet!!!

You just have to try out different things, and see what calms you down and makes you feel better. For instance, I hate it when my heart races and I've found that Jack Daniels is as good as my pills for slowing it down... but then that's really no good either! I find reading and getting engrossed in a story calms me down the most, and doesn't involve me getting drunk before nine in the morning, so that's what I always do. I can't say what is best to help you, just try all the relaxtion things and you'll soon find which works best for you! Stick at it, and make sure you spoil yourself into the bargain! ^_~ I'm totally hopeful for the future, I just see this as a warning/nudge to get my act together and start enjoying life again!

I've had that dream thing once... is it the one where you wake up, but are still paralysed and can't move, get a pressure on your chest and are still dreaming/hallucinating? It's normal to get that a couple of times in your lifetime... if you get it a lot more than that it's usually sign of something... don't worry about it, it's nothing really bad or I would have remembered! I'm sure some of the other peeps can tell you more about that. But I wonder... I've seen documentaries about that, and I'm sure it's nothing to do with panicking/stressing out. I can't remember, I'll have to do a lil search on it, see if I can find anything...

Above all sunset you just gotta force yourself to stay calm and happy... a bit of a contradiction I know but you have to force yourself. It won't get better if you leave it alone, but it could get worse. It's a hassle but you just keep it up until you don't have to anymore! Hope you're doing well! ^_^

~KariX