these feelings are getting so out of conrol and I don't know what to think anymore. I agree I suffer from anxiety/panic disorder but I am starting to think there is more going on here than meets the eye. I think this will be a long post but bare with me please I need to vent. I will start by saying I have had blood test they are good, I have had a eho of the heart that's okay, my blood pressure is good, xray of the head and neck they are also good. I am taking ativan for the anxiety and panic attacks so far I feel like I just sleep better and it slows my heart rate down.
today started out okay I felt good and calm. went off to work as usual. not a stressfull day I've had worse. around 12:00 I was standing at work and all of a sudden the room spun out of control, true vertigo, I couldn't focus and my ears began to get a throbbing sensation, my legs got weak I got hot and my hearing began to sound like everyone was in a tunnel. I then proceeded to have a full blowm panic attack out of fear! I got the chills and decided it was best to go to lunch I barely made it to the car for my legs felt like jelly as if they were not holding me up and I was going to fall to the ground at any given moment. I was so sick to my stomache that eating wasn't really my thoughts at this time. I began to feel confused or disorentated which I notice has been happing alot. I shoved a PJ sandwhich down my throat and a ativan .5mg and prayed for the best!
I returned back to my desk at work and still felt vertigo and unsteady which is a normal 24/7 thing for me unknown why still? around 4:30 I got up from my desk and I felt this spasam in my head that shot across my far head like a bolt of lightning my vision at this point became shakey as if you were to blink your eyes REAlly fast and everything was bouncing, my eyes felt like they were twitching without my control and I felt a rush troughout my head like heat, and I felt as if I was going to faint, I have had many symptoms in te past and this one had to be the most scariest yet, I thought to myself I am having a seizure and I am going to die right here at work.I have Never heard of this happening people who have anxiety attacks. My vision was so blurred and bouncing I couldn't even see where I was standing. and I WASN'T EVEN ANXIOUS!
needless to say this lasted about a minute which really seemed like a life time.I began to feel out of control with myself and thought will this happen again at any moment, and more so what just happened. I felt the jellylegs more then ever and so disconeccted from myself. I was left with a terriable pressure feeling in my head and behind my eyes as if my eyes are coming out of my skull. I left work in a hurry and don't know how I even made it home with these thoughts of my head going to explode at any given moment, or this horriable thing that has happene to me may happpen aagain and be worse, I think my body is telling me something, giving me signs that something eles is truley wrong and is the cause of the anxiety /panic. I am doing threapy and the breathing exercises and yes they help when I am anxious but I am having things happen to me that are so out of character I think for anxiety, '
I am laying still right now in bed with just my fingers typing for I am scared to move to much to cause another unknown attack. I don't know how much longer I can take this for the tears of pain and fright are in my eyes as I speak, I am so confused and frustrated I can not live with these unknown symptoms another second they are driving me mentally insane, and believe me this is not me I am a VERY SANE AND RATIONAL person but why why is this happing? I am too young to die and these horriable things that are happing I feel are going to kill me! why would my vision go out of contol like that? where did these head shocks/spasams that rip throught me come from? I losing all hope and I never thought i'd say that, if I am standing I feel so horriable if I lie down the symptoms seem to subside, so what now I stay in bed the rest of my life? I am so frightened cause my inner thoughts keep telling me these symptoms are more than stress! I am scared now to have this happen again for I have had some symptoms but this was over the edge!
Thank you for listening, any feed back helps. (and I know... I have to relax and believe me I do )
scaredgirl
wow, thats quite a story. i know the feeling. i've never had symptoms quite as extreme as those, however, i have symptoms while not anxious and doing nothing at all soemtimes. and i also have that "ok, i'm going to die right now, theres no reason for this except i am going to die right now" feeling all the time. i don't understand it. i wish i did. but yeah, i know how scary this all can be. i mean, my doctors keep telling me "its stress, its your anxiety." but i feel sooooo sure there is something wrong with me. Cops, race car drivers, firemen....they are stressed, lol. not me. but i do believe it contributes to it. my anxiety goes back to hypochondria. so, whenever i feel any little symptom, i flip out and think its over for me. i really don't know what to tell you. i'm trying hypnotherapy and hypnosis to get through this. i should have it sometime this week. maybe you should look into that. cuz i know you don't necisarily need to be anxious to have an anxiety attack. i asked my Dr. and he said that the subconsious mind is very powerful. so maybe during hypnosis, they will find out the true problem here. its been done, and worked before. i would look into that if the Dr.s are just saying stress. good luck.
first things first, there is absolutely nothing wrong with you..... you have to believe that, and you have to believe in yourself, i have had all the symptoms described above, i have had that type of extreme panic attack. listen up, you typed that whole long post, and guess what, you are going to read this reply and reply too it. so you not what that means, your not dead and your not dying. i want to help you so please listen as i have read post's you have posted before.. and even your login name gives it away. dont be scared of the panic attack. it is absolutely normal, the more scared and worried you get, the worse it gets, thats a proven fact. face it, as you know the old quote "face your fears", ex: riding a roller coaster you are afraid of and when you get off your not scared of it anymore. it really works. this is what i do, "alright! its another panic attack, bring it on panic, is that all you got, come hit me harder." and once you face your fears they will start to deminish. all a panic attack is, is an adrenaline rush through your body at times unexpected. and as your symptoms, think of how you get on a roller coaster and you get off, you have all of those symptoms listed above, vertigo, dizziness,etc.... but you know that it was a fun adrenaline rush. so just keep in mind that it wont hurt you, try to enjoy it...and i know its hard but wants you face your fear your fear will deminish. best of luck
Hello, Immortal said it best. I have have some very very very heavy Panic over the years and to tell you the Truth it can casue symptoms that are even worse that what you just described. Your name does give it away you got to stand up to it face it and say bring it on, yes its scary as hell but once you have done it two three times you will see it gets better and better.
There is no miracle cure for this stuff, its all up to the person to cure him self yeah some quick fixes with medication but you have to cure yourself and like Immortal said face it and say bring it on, its hard but you can do it! I had this stuff for 20 years and can now say I have just about cured myself by doing just what we just said thats how getting better starts faceing it first then things will fall a little better in place for you its not gonna kill ya and you are not gonna go crazy cause you sure type good for a crazy person and make perfect sence and there is a load of people on here that has had it just that bad maybe not in the same kinda symptoms but belive me you this stuff has symptoms noting else comes close to in number and in strange feelings . Go Girl!!!!!!!!
Please read this carefully and give it some serious consideration.
The symptoms you described in your post are nothing more than panic. I know you're constantly wondering why they keep happening, but that's just the way your body works. At this point, if you have experienced chronic anxiety and panic attacks, it's safe to assume that your nervous system is very, very tired.
As you probably know, when your nervous system is overworked, you become hypersensitive to normal bodily sensations. So, when you feel the slightest twinge of dizziness, your body automatically jumps to the conclusion that it's something terrible your doctor hastn't detected yet, and you will die.
This cannot be further from the truth. The fact is, every time you think a negative thought while in the midst of panic, you are adding fuel to the fire. You are simply giving your body more reason to produce even more adrenaline, and realease even more "fight or flight" hormones into your body. So while it may seem like the symptoms you are experiencing are coming out of nowhere, it is all your doing, and a lot of it CAN be controlled.
Personally, I believe that a big part of dealing with panic is understanding all you can about it. That means, going out and reading anything you can get your hands on. There are websites out there that will explain all the symptoms you are experiecing, in much detail. Also, I've taken many trips to bookstores and sat there reading all the anxity and panic books I could find. Believe me when I say this: Everything you described in your post is a normal reaction, caused by a tired, sensitive nervous system.
So, if you haven't already, please try to document yourself as well as humanly possible on this subject. UNDERSTANDING what is happening to you is the first step.
Then, perhaps you should take a look at your diet, and see if you are consuming any strong stimulants on a regular basis. Some may include: coffee, tea, while bread, white pasta, sugar, candy, fruit drinks...etc...If you haven't already taken a really good look at your diet, please consider it as a very big part in your recovery.
I hope this helps a bit. And please remember that no matter how horrible it seems to you at the moment, it just isn't as bad as you think. Really. Take a step back and try to look at the symptoms you are experiencing from a rational, well-read point of view. I guarantee you, that if you do that, a lot of it may start making sense and becoming a lot less threatening.
scared and helpless.. I can't take much more. 
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