terrible anxiety - Panic Disorders Message Board

anneh · 10-17-2003, 04:22 PM

To make it as brief as possible, I sold a horse over 10 years ago to someone who promised me they would always keep it or let me know if they couldn't. Every year I called to see how he was. Last year they said they had sold him! Luckily I was able to play detective and find out where he is. The new owner seemed friendly and I asked her to keep my name/phone# in case things change for her. Well last week I called and she is no longer at the workplace and the cell# has a message on it but she has not returned my two calls. Her home# is unlisted but I drove out to where I think she lives yesterday but couldn't find the farm. Anyway, on the way home I went into a terrible state. I couldn't stop sobbing and shaking for fear of what might have happened to my horse (horses can end up at slaughter for meat). I feel so ill and anxious, my anxiety is terrible again. I don't know how I can control it without finding out what happened to him or how I will go on without knowing

DawnMarie1978 · 10-17-2003, 10:23 PM

Keep us posted on what you can come up with. If it is any comfort when they slaughter horses they are almost always young. They dont want to slaughter older horses because the muscles are tough. Sorry not to be offensive, but that is what I understand. When people want horses about that age its usually for the benefit of the horse being a little more tame as the years pass. Someones probably giving the horse lots of love or teaching there children to ride. Hope your Ok. I know what your going through my mom went through something similar.