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I'm thinking of going to a psychologist soon because I think that I have problems with panic and anxiety. My partner and I have had alot of arguements recently, and when it appears we are going to break up, I get lots of physical reactions that I just can't help. My throat gets very dry and I have trouble swallowing (and when I do it is so full of effort that it looks cartoonish), my heart races and pounds audibly outside my body, and I start breathing fast and shallow. THere have been a number of times (so embaressing) I literally had so much adrenaline or whatever in my system and was so upset that I had to very quickly put on my workout clothes and went not jogging, but full speed ahead running for about forty minutes. (I am barely capable of jogging at an acceptably not slow pace, but for forty minutes I somehow managed to run very VERY fast at almost no effort.) What does this mean? What is this? It was quite traumatizing. I also get really OCD and will check my email literally 20 times in a four hour period...I just can't stop. I've done some research on anxiety and think I have it, but don't know all of the particulars. Thoughts are much appreciated.
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