Re: Afraid to go to the Doctor, but need to!
Well unfortunately, its not going to be easy regardless of what any of us say. I'm sure deep down you know that, as you have dealt with PA's for years, like a lot of us in here. You've built the thought of going to the doctor's office up in your mind, so its going to be a big task for you. All we can do is offer you support, and let you know that you're not alone. It was hard for me to go to my doctor appointments as well, however, I just had to keep telling myself that at the end of the appointment, I would feel much better. I just managed to get through it, and at the end, felt much better, just like I had kept telling myself. You should definitely get somebody, anybody, who understands, and is good at comforting you, to go with you. I have a couple of close friends who I would call, and they would at times donate a whole day to help me out. I think thats pretty important. Use anything you can to take your mind off of it. Whatever you do, do not be too hard on yourself, as I'm sure you're aware that PA's are extremely difficult to deal with. You don't need to hammer on yourself and get all depressed, because nobody on the planet has an easy way of coping with them. Just do what you can, when you can.
On a side note, do you ever exercise? I've been a PA sufferer for five years. Lexapro worked for me, unfortunately I do not want to be on any meds. While I was feeling 100% on Lexapro, I forced myself to go to the gym and picked up running. I now run almost daily and find that the exercise is absolutely instrumental in controlling these things. Some days I can only do an uphill walk, or a jog, but any exercise you get at all is better than none. Please find a way to try, even though it sounds like your job is pretty physical. You need the time away to clear your mind, listen to some music or something. I've been off of Lexapro for 7 months now, and haven't missed a day of work in over two years. I still have PA's, but am able to control them for the most part, and am never hard on myself when they win a day or two. The chest pains and such come and go, just as you described, but you just have to do what you can to take your mind off of it, and focus it towards positive energy.
I hope this helped a little. Good luck to you, and keep us posted!