Where should I go from here?
I'm 21 years old and I have been suffering from panic attacks for about a year now, the last six months though it's gotten so much worse than before. I was having them constantly with out trigger. I got so sick that I could barely eat or get off the couch for two weeks till I decided to see my doctor. I was given zoloft that didn't help me. Then I was given Welbutrin and I was taking it for 6-7 weeks till I couldn't stand the constant headaches, labored breathing, irregular heart beats and worst of all the 'out of it' feeling. For the past two days I have been trying a beta blocker. It seems to be okay. I really haven't done anything that would trigger it though. I am not getting my hopes up. My dilemma is that I live with my mother, and my boyfriend (She is letting him live with us) I need a job. I am scared to get a job, to make the commitment. I know that panic has effected the way I think because instead of thinking of where I would like to work, I am thinking about what if I have a panic attack or have to walk home, which is also a panic attacks waiting to happen. It's ruining my relationship, and I need to contribute to my mom for the bills and food. Currently I have come to accepting it and am more stable with them on consistent basis. I don't crap a brick every time they happen now, I can usually relax and wait it out. Though that's always been at home. Lately though I have been seeing friends, and actually doing things. I feel like I could get a job, but there is that looming fear that I can't seem to shake. I just never want to feel that way again, I don't want to live life with constant fear or being out of it. I don't want to do things to cause them, but I have to. I guess I just have to deal with it? Anyone have any words of wisdom for me?