I'm 21 years old and I have been suffering from panic attacks for about a year now, the last six months though it's gotten so much worse than before. I was having them constantly with out trigger. I got so sick that I could barely eat or get off the couch for two weeks till I decided to see my doctor. I was given zoloft that didn't help me. Then I was given Welbutrin and I was taking it for 6-7 weeks till I couldn't stand the constant headaches, labored breathing, irregular heart beats and worst of all the 'out of it' feeling. For the past two days I have been trying a beta blocker. It seems to be okay. I really haven't done anything that would trigger it though. I am not getting my hopes up. My dilemma is that I live with my mother, and my boyfriend (She is letting him live with us) I need a job. I am scared to get a job, to make the commitment. I know that panic has effected the way I think because instead of thinking of where I would like to work, I am thinking about what if I have a panic attack or have to walk home, which is also a panic attacks waiting to happen. It's ruining my relationship, and I need to contribute to my mom for the bills and food. Currently I have come to accepting it and am more stable with them on consistent basis. I don't crap a brick every time they happen now, I can usually relax and wait it out. Though that's always been at home. Lately though I have been seeing friends, and actually doing things. I feel like I could get a job, but there is that looming fear that I can't seem to shake. I just never want to feel that way again, I don't want to live life with constant fear or being out of it. I don't want to do things to cause them, but I have to. I guess I just have to deal with it? Anyone have any words of wisdom for me?
You sound like you are in the height of the misery that panic disorders dish out. It is a unpleasant state of mind, but know it will eventually pass. You should read through all the panic ad anxiety blogs to comfort you and enlighten you. Take one day, maye even just one minute at a time, you'll be surprised that in that minute you can handle it. As you re trying different meds and working with your doctor i hope you are also seeing a behavior modification therapist. Panic disorders are not necessarily an illness but an over reaction, so its more of learning to cope then to to be cured. Its an over reaction of the body to a stimuli, a very annoying one. Be sure you stay away from caffiene, alcohol and junk food. Your body really needs you to feed it healthy and well balanced meals at this time. Also, if do not have a peanut allergy add cashew or almonds to your diet, they are high in magnesium and magesium has alot to do with your nerves. It can be done just with the foods you eat Remember just take one minute at a time, it will get better. also, you can get an ipod app on binurial beats and listen to them to help calm you.And laugh all you can, rent funny movies, anything that you find funny and watch it. Laughter is a great medicine in itself. Good luck.