Well Im back...after being gone for 3 years and being completely in control I awoke at 3 am from a bad dream with my heart racing out of control which scared me which led into a full-blown panic attack. I haven't had one this bad in YEARS! So basically I woke up with my heart racing (of course I'm taking my pulse and freaking out because breathing isn';t slowing it down which means my heart is the problem;;;you know the drill) and then come the chills, the dizziness, the nausea and I say, "ok put my head between my legs"...I woke my husband and told him to get my xanax NOW because thankfully I have a cool dr. who gives me a script that lasts about 2 years...Anyway, took 1/2 of a .25 which calmed me just a LITTLE, had to go to Bathroom, called my step-mom because I always think she knows everything and sure enough she described her old panic attacks just the same. Tried to lie back down 30 minutes later but wouldn't you know it, the darn thing started creeping up again! Took another 1/2 .25 which now puts me up to a BIG ole .50 xanax and although I'm calmer I still feel a bit tense. I'm so glad this message board is still here and i actually remembered my name and my password! Seriously, you'd think we'd learn after having these stupid things to be all, "Oh I know this is a panic attack I'll ljust breathe and make it go away"...Right. Jeez...Anybody else go years without one and then BAMM! Out of nowhere?
I totally get you! In fact, here it is 2:00 in the morning, have to get up for work in 4 hours and I'm searching panic disorder and heart attacks because "of course" I must be having heart failure... for me it started 4 days ago after being 2 years free of an attack. I woke up with a sore back and this little thought crossed my mind... women have back pain with a heart attack. Well that set me off. It's been 4 days of constant worry, dread, shaking, dizziness, nausea, headaches, muscle aches and 1 major attack. I don't have any xanax left because it's been 2 years and it's like I went from strong to weak in 2 seconds flat. Despite rationally knowing it's not my heart, I've had tests in the past that have been normal, I still think "maybe this time it really is a heart attack". I'm a 34 yr old married mom of 2. In otherwise good health and this is driving me bananas! So I feel your pain
tgrose, I'm right there with ya on this one. I had total and complete control over my anxiety/panic disorder for a good 3 years, no meds, NOTHING! and then one night...BAM! Wake up with a nocturnal panic attack, thinking the same as you, "OMG i'm having a heart attack", and the cycle began again.....*sigh*
So here I am, a year later, back on zoloft and xanax. But hey, at least they're going away again. This time however, was totally different, they seem more intense! Like "am I really having a heart attack or a stroke?" kind of thinking, because they're all new symptoms. I started getting tingling down my arms, and up my neck, into my head and face!
That is a new one to me, as it has never happened during my 25 years of dealing with this monster. So of course, what did I do......Go to the ER, just to make sure that's what it was. It scared the crap out of me! So then about a month goes by and BAM! another one with the tingling.....drove myself to the ER AGAIN! Something's got to be wrong right?
NOPE! They gave me 1 mg ativan through IV and i was calm within a half hour. Well after 2 trips to the ER, and two EKG's, and all types of bloodwork, within two months, i'm perfectly healthy they say.
Makes ya wonder sometimes huh? You're not alone!
Life is NOT like a bowl of cherries! It's more like a jar of Jalepenos...... what you do today might burn your A$$ tomorrow!
I feel your pain! hahahaha I laughed out loud when I read the pulse checking thing! I do that daily.... Same story with me, this past summer I had a very bad panic attack out of nowhere after several years of peace. I wonder why? Suppressing things can really mess with the mind and body, which is what I'm pretty sure is causing mine again. I feel one little pain and it triggers the domino effect! Or it just takes me by surprise at work or some other random place and I feel like hiding or going to the ER! And of course, you know you have panic disorder - but in the middle of a full blown attack, that logic just doesn't sink in for some reason.
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