I, too, am terrified of taking medicine. I also have the fear of shampoo, and lotions, makeup. All kinds of things. It seems so silly writing it down. Who is afraid of shampoo and lotion??
I haven't posted here in a long time, but I am thinking about going back on anxiety/depression meds and was looking for the differences in Lexapro and Celexa.
Annnyway. years ago, I got so tired of anxiety ruling my life that I decided side effects or no, I was doing something. I took 10mg of Lexapro and I think it literally saved my life.
I have been off it for several years, and have been good, but feel depression creeping back in. As bad as I hate medicine, I will take it again before I let it almost ruin my life, again.
Please try it. If it doesn't work, you can try something else. If you have to cut it in half at first, at least try. you will feel so much better. I did.
The ONLY side effect I had was drowsiness. And that went away after a week or so. As do most side effects.
I was afraid it would change my personality and I wouldn't be myself. All it did for me was take away the bad, so I could be me.
I hope you feel better very soon!