My Panic Attack Won't Stop!
Ever since last Thursday, my body has been locked in an on and off severe panic attack. I have a long history of PA, but have enjoyed only having mild attacks over the last couple of years.
Which only makes this one so scary. My attacks originated from an early fear in life of having a heart attack. Due to family history, I am in a mega high category for heart disease. Ironically, this attack comes on the heels of trying to get in shape. I pushed myself harder last week in the gym, and probably strained some chest and shoulder muscles doing chest presses. I started having pains in that area which brought on anxiety of having a heart attack. Soon, I became very concious of my breathing, and it seemed like I had to take a breathe constantly.
Then I went in full panic attack. Shortness of breath, mild chest pains, squeezing sensation on my chest, weird sensations in my arms. As always, I never can feel 100% comfident that it is just panic when I'm in the midst. I went back to the gym and did a full workout and felt better, but the next day, I woke up thinking about the attack, and immediately became aware of my breathing which brought back the attack.
I was hoping a relaxing weekend would end the cycle. I had a few periods of relief, but the attacks kept coming back. I couldn't stop thinking about my breathing which would cause me to breathe more rapidly and bring back the attack and chest pains.
I keep telling my mind that this is just panic attacks and will go away, but now I'm locked into this fear that they won't go away, and I can't stop conciously being aware of my breathing and how often I'm taking breaths. It's maddening! It has become the first thought to hit my brain when I wake up.
To convince myself that I'm not having a heart attack, I walked up and down five flights of stairs today. I was definitely out of breath, but recovered quickly and felt calmer, but soon the attack returned. I would think if I was having a real heart attack, I would be feeling much worse.
Has anyone had attacks cycles like this that just go on for days and days?