I wonder... - Parkinson's Disease Message Board

dbiker2 · 12-12-2000, 01:24 AM

I wonder…what? Wonder…the feeling aroused by something extraordinary or marvelous…a feeling of uncertainty

I wonder what it would be like to be free of Parkinson’s…I just realized tonight that I don’t remember what it was like; it’s been seventeen years. That’s a long time… a lot of shaking…cramps…head bobbing…embarrassing moments…medicine. I don’t remember what it’s like not to shake. I don’t remember what it was like. I wonder what it was like. Not to shake, that would be marvelous.

I wonder…why? Why…do I shake? I wonder…will I ever really know why…and if I do know why…will it matter…why…I wonder…Do you wonder…why? I wonder…

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Darrell

Bruce · 12-12-2000, 08:18 AM

I guess it is human nature to wonder and be uncertain what lies ahead, but it could be said even if we didn't have PD, we could all be uncetain about the future.

My mentor Googy tells me I have changed and that is probably true. When I was working and fighting extreme fatigue every day, that was the low point of my life. I was stressed and worried about a lot of things, but I just don't think like that anymore.

Now I just take it one day at a time and learn to adjust to the many Parkinson's symptoms. If I have more dyskinesia in public, I really don't worry what people think.

Our lives with PD may be far from perfect, but I still can see that "silver lining".Bruce

Googy · 12-12-2000, 03:08 PM

You both have so much to give to others with PD.You have already.My youngest daughter said to me last week" Mother I dont remember anything with Dad except PD".I tried to think of an answer.The only thing I could say was." He is with us still".Many are not.Some were very young when we lost them.None of us know what life will offer us ! Bruce has been my friend for sometime.Now You are and many others Darrell.

Blessings,

Googy

Leathan · 12-12-2000, 05:18 PM

Hi Biker ,

you make a poignant point , effectively.
What I would say is - try to remember what you felt like before this happened to you - just try. I must admit I thought it was really impossible to follow this simple piece of advice , but I started to remember good things about the past - but more specifically - how I felt at certain happen times... and now , i must say that gives me the strength to go on at times..

your friend ,

Leathan

dbiker2 · 12-12-2000, 05:55 PM

Whoaaa folks...I'm not complaining or depressed, it's just good ol' oklahoma boy wondering...those thoughts were just on my mind and I put them in writing. Thanks...

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Darrell