i am not feeling to bad at the moment my partner has stayed with me over the las couple of nights as i have not felt to safe which is really nice of him as i was so horrible to him the whole time then five minutes after insulting him i would appologise and the cycle has gone on for days it really drives me insane know what i mean?
how are you doing at the moment?
i have also arranged a medication review with my dr for next week
have you ever been on a med that really worked for you any advice would be great
I know I have had problems with polarizing my thoughts. What I did, I started meditating and reading Buddhist philosphy. The meditating is so calming of the soul & physically calm your body & the philosophy of zen buddhism is to think in the momment. That we can't control anything but ourselves...it helps to center your thinking. It really has helped me get to a more grey area!! Alanis Morrissette songs are theraputuc also! (Thank U, So Pure, Still, and Precious Illusions to name a few) I think Alanis is/was a BPD! =)
i doubt i have found a miricle cure but i am starting to realise that there COULD be a grey area and it not all or nothing
i have been having councelling sessions with my CPN and when i start saying its all or nothing she then introduces the middle for me and even though i cant except that, i do listen. now when i start with my black and white thinking i realise there is a grey area. it is going to take a long time before i start acting in the grey but at least i know now that it exsits
not sure if that makes any sense but i hope you catch what i mean
black and white thinking 
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