missmoody

Ok everybody, all the stupid family holidays are here and I don't know what to do. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and that makes me want to die. I hate family gatherings. As if Thanksgiving isn't bad enough, a month later here comes Christmas! When I was single I used to just lock myself up in my house and watch t.v. until the holiday was over, but now I am married so hubby doesn't allow that. Noone understands how impossible it is for me to cope at these times. I just want to crawl in a hole under a rock and hide until it is all over. It depresses me because my family isn't normal or functioning and I can't go spend time with my family. Most married couples split holidays among inlaws, but I have no choice but to spend every single holiday with my hubby's family. It saddens me that I can't just barge over to my mom's house and have a Thanksgiving dinner with her. It also depresses me because it forces me to reflect on how unloving and uncaring my family is and that weighs heavily on me. I don't know how I am going to survive this year. Surely I am not the only one that feels this way. What do you all do to survive the family holidays? I just feel it is rubbed in my face nation-wide that I have a sorry family. I tried to look at it different ways but can't. I know this all sounds harsh, but I am under a lot of emotional anguish right now. Thanks for letting me vent!!!
missmoody