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dan30606 · 07-09-2003, 04:50 PM

Can anyone out there help me i think i have got bpd? Hello my name is dan im 19 and live in england.Since leaving school iv bin a complete mess.Confusion,depresion,bad anixiety,obscesions and compoltions.No one understands my madness not even my family (not that i would listen to them anyway).After 3 years of this constant hell iv come up with bpd.It explains exactly the way i am.I read alot about the way other people are and there storys and it felt like i was reading somthing about my own personality.I dont see things in black and white and have alot of anger(apart from when nobody listens to me and takes me seriously).But everything else is exactly right.I dont want to have this disorder, but i know somthing just aint right.I don't know who i really am, what to do(career) i always seem to be who ever i am with.Thats why im finding it so hard deciding what to do because id rather follow other people.On my own my i carnt stick with one thing.My mind changes to oftern.IV bin to the doctor many times and beleives im fine.Iv bin to phyciarist and she says i havent got a borderline personality, but does she even know what she is talking about.i don't want to carry on like this and let even more time go by, only to find i have got a fall blown disorder, when i could of be getting treatment. can anyone pleas give me some much needed advice.thanks.

KADELICIOUS · 07-09-2003, 06:18 PM

from my personal knowledge of bpd, it does not sound like that is what you are suffering with. my experience with the disorder has been extreme fits anger, fear of abdonment, substance abuse, and self injury. but just because you may not be suffering from bpd does NOT mean you are not suffering! why don't you try another therapist? if you are being dismissed by one it doesn't sound like they are very
competent...certainly not helpful