matteo2828

I've been through alot of crap in my life as i'm sure many other people have.Some of these i can list but it would take to long to discuss them on here.Heres a list of bad memories i have of my life as a kid

.Bullied though primary school and high school
.Not many freinds, loney, unwanted
.6 week lock up in a mental hospital when i was 13, they found nothing wrong with me though
.Abuse, both phyical and mental from perents, not much love from parents.


Only now when I¡¦m just starting my first year in college am I making some progress.I¡¦m making new friends and I¡¦m no longer being bullied.
That¡¦s not the end of it though.

I think I may have BPD.I¡¦ve researched on it on the net and the follwing things match my feelings


„h so completely in each mood, they have great difficulty conceptualizing, remembering what it's like to be in another mood
„h Impulsive behaviors that often embarrass the borderline later
„h chronic/major depression
„h helplessness
„h hopelessness
„h worthlessness
„h guilt
„h anger (including frequent expressions of anger)
„h anxiety
„h loneliness
„h boredom
„h emptiness
Cognition
„h odd thinking
„h unusual perceptions
„h nondelusional paranoia
intolerance of aloneness abandonment, engulfment, annihilation fears counterdependency stormy relationships manipulativeness

and one of the big ones¡K.Someone with BPD said, "I have a hard time figuring out my personality. I tend to be whomever I'm with


I have all these feeling plus aot more, shold I visit the doctor or are these feelings just normal for a teen?