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Old 10-29-2005, 08:52 AM   #1
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Breaking free - PD Parent

Hi. I am not new to the board, but new to this category. I am hoping to gain some additional insight. I am just beginning to learn about Personality Disorder. I am a 37 year old female recovering addict and I am the product of a father with severe personality disorder(s) and a passive unprotective mother.

I don't know if you can have more than one personality disorder. I've read alot and I plan to ask my therapist this question next week. My father seems to fit many many of the categories of PD. The behaviors he exhibited while I was growing up and continues to exhibit clearly fit multiple categories within categories. My therapist has just given me "Trapped in the Mirror" to read to help with understanding, I must say I've seen alot of my life on those pages. She hasn't come out and said it yet but I suspect myself that I have some OCD tendencies. I don't have germ issues, hand washing, cleaning compulsively..none of that...but just the way I am rigid, keep everything in my little box where I can control it, I hate change, I'm very detail oriented, never feel "good enough" no matter how much I achieve, etc..

Anyway, my dad still tries to control everything around him and everyone around him. At the same time if he doesn't get the "attention" he craves he will create chaos to get it, he has done many illegal things in my life that I was forced to go along with knowingly as a child (even to the point of being forced to give dishonest depositions at 12 years old), he constantly shared way too much personal information with me, he constantly tried (and still does) to turn me completely against my mother, he can never ever forgive anything, he was abusive verbally, emotionally, physically, spiritually to me and my mom, he was and is never ever wrong and makes no mistakes, he takes no responsibility for his part in anything, he is always the victim, I could never participate in sports, arts or any kind of extra-cirriculuar activities..the list goes on and on. I have been told by my therapist I need to completely sever ties with him. Easier said than done. I am an only child, my dad's physical health is very very bad, he & my mom are divorced, obvouisly he has NO friends, no family..nobody. I am it. Why do I feel responsible for him? He truly makes me nuts sometimes. I only talk to him when I absolutely have to anymore and it's out of a sense of obligation I guess.

Any experience or input appreciated. I'm just trying to learn what I can to become more healthy. As I said earlier I am a recovering addict. I had 11 years clean. I relapsed a year ago and now have over 40 days clean again. I know I chose to use again, but I feel very strongly that working out some of this stuff from the past and trying to understand it will be an important key to continued success. I love my kids and my husband very much and I want to be the best mom and wife I can be. I know I've got to learn to love myself a little more too.
Thanks in advance.

 
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Old 10-29-2005, 05:59 PM   #2
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Re: Breaking free - PD Parent

Sweety, I feel so devastated, because I have seen the adult children who are still struggling in life to overcome their past childhood fears. You need to put the past behind you starting now, it is not a good idea to dwell on the past, because its something we can not change. There are some awful things that happen to the nicest people, but hon, it is up to us not to play the victim any longer.

The more time you have to sit and thnk about your catastrophic childhood, the more enraged and bitter you'll become. Don't do that to yourself, be positive. I know it is hard, but believe me, if you can get through this, you can do anything . You really need to love yourself and find some peace of mind and happiness in your life, since life is short, and you should not be living your life in misery about something you had no control over.

My long time childhood friend and I were talking the other day about some circumstances she just can't get over from her childhood. She is emotionally scarred for life because of it. I told her, in the best way I could, that she really needs to embrace that part of herself, then let it go like a helium balloon taking flight into the sky. I know, weird way to describe it, but really she listened to me and cried and said she was thankful for me just listening and trying to help.

Try writing a journal, it does wonders for someone who is down and depressed, and I bet it will make you feel better. You may also benefit by discussing your deep seated issues with a counselor, it works for some, but not all. Give it a try, and try to remain positive .

 
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