Re: SO I do beleive that I have at least one personality disorder if not several.
Why don't you go an get some therapy instead of guessing and labelling yourself. FWTW, I don't think it sounds a bit like a personality disorder at all. One of the main features of a personality disorder is that the person is virtually incapable of seeing that there is anything wrong, they pick up their cues from those around them and adjust accordingly without really knowing that there is a reason that they have to do this. You are emotionally unstable, and with your mood swings, it may be that bipolar is more your problem. The "hole in your soul" speaks more of depression than personality disorder - someone with a personality disorder would never be aware of such a thing. (At least the ones I have come across-that is most of the problem of trying to deal with them, they rarely recognise that there is a disorder present) But I still would not be labelling you without a decent examination by a professional.