Re: I feel that I may be a sociopath...
Killing animals is very serious and cruel and to not feel any emotions about it is scary. Some people have said that people who kill animals are likely to go on to kill bigger living things. I am not judging, just not understanding the stealing and feeling deserving of it? We all feel we deserve more or better pay etc. Do you not know the difference between right from wrong? You must since you hide your drug addiction otherwise you would use in the open correct? and you would escort in the open also? So i am guessing you do know right from wrong, good from bad, legal from illegal.
So you had a bad up bringing, a lot of us have. We either break the cycle or repeat it. Do you want your child to go through what you did? End up in your adult shoes? Maybe you will feel then? It will be to late then, the cycle will have been repeated one more time. Maybe you won't let yourself feel emotions for fear of being hurt, disappointed in life. There is help out there, so what if it is at a clinic. Does your state have social services? state medical aid? In my state you could be arrested and serve time for killing animals...if you don't find out what caused you to do that, who knows what you may do later...and the heroin? C'mon, you have a kid..picture your kid sitting with you doing the same stuff...not cool. If you don't make a change for yourself, you are creating the inevitable for your child and that is a dead end road. So enough of justifying what you do, we can all make excuses for our bad choices, but we know they are bad and we can change them, our kids can't.