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Old 05-13-2011, 01:48 PM   #1
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Question I feel that I may be a sociopath...

Ok so here I go... I stumbled upon this articles "5 signs that you're husband may be a psychopath." which led me to the 16 signs of sociopathic behavior and as I read on I realized that more than 12 of them applied to me! I've always considered myself a fairly decent person but there's definitely this darkness that I keep very well hidden just below the surface. My livlihood is one: I tell everyone that I'm a bartender in an afterhours club for gay men so that no man that I date will ever go there because in reality I make my living as an escort. 2nd: I have been addicted to heroin forthe past 4 years but justify my use to myself by sticking to snorting and not to shooting. I lie to myself as well as others and feel nothing about doing so. I've stolen and justified it because I felt deserving of it. And the most horrible is that I've killed a few pets. I've drowned 2 cats in my bathtub just because... I do however feel bad looking back on that and I do know it's wrong but I don't know what it is that comes over me or if I can be helped? I had a hard life and I don't show emotion too often and perhaps that was my way of getting some of it out but now that I have a child of my own I fear for her future as well as my own! However I have no med ins and highly doubt that a clinic could handle my dysfunction... I'm sure many that read this will think horribly of me and I really need to hear some feedback, negative or otherwise.. Please help!

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Old 05-18-2011, 10:51 AM   #2
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Re: I feel that I may be a sociopath...

Killing animals is very serious and cruel and to not feel any emotions about it is scary. Some people have said that people who kill animals are likely to go on to kill bigger living things. I am not judging, just not understanding the stealing and feeling deserving of it? We all feel we deserve more or better pay etc. Do you not know the difference between right from wrong? You must since you hide your drug addiction otherwise you would use in the open correct? and you would escort in the open also? So i am guessing you do know right from wrong, good from bad, legal from illegal.

So you had a bad up bringing, a lot of us have. We either break the cycle or repeat it. Do you want your child to go through what you did? End up in your adult shoes? Maybe you will feel then? It will be to late then, the cycle will have been repeated one more time. Maybe you won't let yourself feel emotions for fear of being hurt, disappointed in life. There is help out there, so what if it is at a clinic. Does your state have social services? state medical aid? In my state you could be arrested and serve time for killing animals...if you don't find out what caused you to do that, who knows what you may do later...and the heroin? C'mon, you have a kid..picture your kid sitting with you doing the same stuff...not cool. If you don't make a change for yourself, you are creating the inevitable for your child and that is a dead end road. So enough of justifying what you do, we can all make excuses for our bad choices, but we know they are bad and we can change them, our kids can't.

 
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Re: I feel that I may be a sociopath...

Hi,

This response may be harsh, but you need to hear it. At least you can admit your wrongs. You need to seek help before things escalate into even worse acts. There is no justification for your acts, so stop justifying them. You do exhibit sociopathic behavior. The key different between psychopathy and sociopathic behavior is the psychopaths cannot feel emotion and have no conscience.

This is serious and you need to find help. If you can’t afford it, look around online for clinics that offer counseling. Tell them what is going on and they will point you in the right direction. But the key thing is that you NEED to get help before ANYTHING gets worse. You’ve already killed animals. That is HORRIBLE. I can’t stress this enough… GO. GET. HELP. Also, get off the heroin. It’s only exacerbating your underlying problem.
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Old 02-02-2012, 01:56 PM   #4
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Your main priority should be your daughter. If you don't get help, you will lose her. Start off by going to rehab for your drug problem. Once you are sober, get help for your other problems. Getting sober is first, though. You will have a clear mind and body and you'll be able to tackle your other problems a whole lot easier. Drugs make us do the craziest things. I know someone who would get so violent with weed. He had to stop in order to better his life. If you see that you still have impulses to steal, lie and kill animals, then you need to seek serious help...maybe going to a mental ward and getting on meds. Do it before anything gets worse or before you hurt yourself, your child, or anyone else. Do it soon and do it for your child. And for yourself. You won't regret it.

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Old 02-02-2012, 02:01 PM   #5
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Re: I feel that I may be a sociopath...

Your main priority should be your daughter. If you don't get help, you will lose her. Start off by going to rehab for your drug problem. Once you are sober, get help for your other problems. Getting sober is first, though. You will have a clear mind and body and you'll be able to tackle your other problems a whole lot easier. Drugs make us do the craziest things. I know someone who would get so violent with weed. He had to stop in order to better his life. If you see that you still have impulses to steal, lie and kill animals, then you need to seek serious help...maybe going to a mental ward and getting on meds. Do it before anything gets worse or before you hurt yourself, your child, or anyone else. Do it soon and do it for your child. And for yourself. You won't regret it.

 
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