| paranoia
i cant believe im going to say this as im going to sound nuts but i cant stand it any longer, I have been with my boyfriend for 2 and a half years im 20 and hes 24 but we have major problems and we have had for most of the relationship. I get very paranoid and like to know where he is all the time and if i phone him and he doesnt answer i will just keep phoning him sometimes upto 100 times, i dont like him going out with his friends as im paranoid there will be girls there so when he goes out i consantly phone and txt him to find out where he is and who hes with and again if he doesnt answer i will just keep ringing all night, i have never hurt him but the other day when we were having an argument i bit him on the arm and have cut and bruised him. i exagerate things to get more attention from him and if he says hes got a night out planned i always make up things to stop him going out, if he doesnt answer his phone or txt me back i start to send him abusive messages. if he tells me he is going to leave me i tell him i will kill myself, i get very down at times and get very angry easily. i also have no self confidence and when i go out i am paranoid everyone is laughing at me. I know it sounds easy enough to say i just need to stop it but i cant seem to be able to i hate they way i am and would do anything i could to change it, anyone with any tips? i also lie about stupid things like where my mum and dad work and things to get attention
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