yosemite1989

i am a 23 year old male . for as long as i can remember i have felt a feeling of displacement to everything this affects every aspect of my life . my mind races 24/7 this affects me getting to sleep and i sit up till 3-5 am every night b4 i can get to sleep if i sleep before midnight i will wake up by 3 am . it also affects personal relationships in a way that i will doubt the sincerity of them and at times i have said the most awful things i could think off to make sure the distance themselves from me because i feel they would be better off only to regret it a few days later anger is linked to this but very very rarely physical its mostly mental i will tear myself apart or plot ways to bring the persons life crashing down around them .

now i feel the old way of thinking returning and the antidepressants the doctors put me on only further annoy the situation . does any1 have any advice or can anyone tell me if this is more common than just me? . i am worried and asking help