OCD or Phobia? Please help!
Does anyone else have a huge fear of chemicals? I have a huge fear of chemicals. I am so afraid to even walk near any sort of chemicals, even house-hold cleaner.This started about 6 months ago and has got worse. If i even can smell any cleaner after someone has cleaned, i will worry about it for about an hour or two after i smell it, to the point where i give myself aniexty attacks. I guess i feel like the chemical will some how hurt me, sort of like contaminate me, i will think CONSENTLY "what if it got on me somehow, or what if i breathed it in" then i will feel all of this aniexty. It's even now got to the point where sometimes i think, "what if i ate/drank it" I know that sounds so crazy but sometimes i think that. Its like originally i was just afraid to go near them but now i like second guess myself and tell myself what if i drank it or smelled it. I SWEAR I WOULD NEVER HURT MYSELF EVER! Thats why these thoughts are so scary because i know i would never hurt myself but then i wonder why i constently have these thoughts. It's like i know the thoughts aren't true/aren't going to happen, like i think "i would never do that, that's so stupid" but then i think well maybe just because i had that thought that means it will happen, does that make sense? I use to never have this problem, trust me i use to be able to go near all sorts of chemicals, so why the heck do i have such a huge issue with them now? I mean i have been stressed out and depressed for the last year, so maybe thats why im like this? My dad use to clean our house with really strong acid and stuff. When i was little if i sweared my mom would put bad stuff in my mouth, like soap, vinager, and maybe cleaner, so is that why i have this phobia/ocd now???
Could this fear be from OCD, a phobia, or maybe Post tromatic stress disorder?
I guess i just want to get an idea of what is wrong with me because i need to go get help because this fear is controlling my life? Does this mean im going crazy or something?