But my social anxiety seems to be just getting worse and worse. It wasn't so bad 4-5 years ago, when I was in high school and most of my friends from that time were still around.
But because I didn't go to college (still plan on going back at some point though) I went down a totally different path straight to the "adult" working world.
For the first year it was all partying and lots of friends...I was happy. But the next year that all went away very suddenly, and I moved to a one bedroom apartment....this is when I became isolated from the world and I started to downspiral. I was also this way in my early high school days, until my junior year...locked away in my bedroom all the time.
I basically only had myself for 3 years or so. Finally moved to a college town, and met a few people at work that were in college and things became alot better again. But, a girl I fell for and all the people I had become friends with basically abandoned me like everyone else I've ever managed to stumble upon in my life.
Now, for the last year or so I've been isolated again. All I do again is work, or stay locked up in my room.
I'm afraid to even try with another woman because every time before has been a traumatically horrible experience. I don't want to risk being destroyed that way again.
I'm afraid to talk to anybody. I'm even afraid of my roommates, if you can believe that. It's ridiculous. My mental health is becoming worse by the day.
I don't really know what to do. I'm phobic of being social, especially with strangers. And, at 22 and looking to go back to college, I can't really afford the treatment other people can. I dunno what to do. I'm miserable, and alone.
I have the same problem, but im still in highschool (last year). I used to be out partying and hanging with friends daily but that all stopped suddenly. I only go out for school, and i want to go out but now im terrified of new people and groups of people. Its hard to explain, i feel like i want to socialise and feel lonely but have no good chances because nothing happens but at the same time i feel extremely shy around people. Ive been living like a hermit for about a year now and its screwing with my head. All i keep thinking to my self is it will all be back to normal in a few months, but it never is
I know what you mean by your friends abandoneding you mine all did it at the same time, i do see and speak at school but they never invite me to partys or to hang anymore. I dont get it i didnt change or anything. Schools becoming worse and worse because of the social phobia, classroom situations are like torture.
Anyway if thing get better for you some how tell me how you pulled it off
I can completely relate to your situation. I am 24 years old and the exact same thing happened with me. I didn't go on to college/university as the majority of my school friends did, and since losing them as friends, I have been too anxious to make new ones. I am stuck in a pattern of extreme loneliness.
I'm sorry I don't have any advice with you. Just know you are not alone.