Hi all, I have been searching the net for days looking for what I think I am suffering from...'emetophobia'.
Let me explian my story.
I am a married 28 year old mother of 2 little ones (aged 2.5 and 4.5). I am in a happy relationship, my husband is FaNtAsTiC!!!!! Great daddy, perfect husband.
Anyway, I myself come from a broken home, alcaholic parents, abusive father etc.
My life was going great. I got married at 23 had my little girl. I struggled with a few issues but was coping ok. Untill my daughter got sick. She was about a month off turning 1 and shegot a tummy bug. She vomited in her cot and later on me. Poor little poppet, cant help it but I panicked!!!!!
I literally ran.
Anyway, over the past 4 years both my children have had tummy bugs which have involved loads of vomiting. Everytime it happens I have panic attacks, hard to breath, shake, cry, get hot and simply fall down and not cope. It is very bizzare, my husband cant understand 'why I cant just look after the kids when they are sick' he says, 'it's part of life, children vomit', yeah but I cant deal with it. So much so, that when my son was 12 months old I almost had a breakdown, all of us got a tummy bug and it lasted for over a week. I cracked. My doctor put me on meds for PND (which I also had) and I also saw a councellor.
None of it realy delt with the 'sickness' though as I have always dismissed it as 'me being 'irrational' or 'me not getting a grip' but no matter how much I try I just cannot handle the thought of vomiting, my children vomiting or my husband.
I feel like I am almost obsessed with it, I avoid anyone who I even 'think' might be sick, I am totaly fussy where we eat, I will even pick meat out of a meal 'in case' I get sick from eating it,(even if i have cooked it) I carry around anti-bacterial gel ebverywhere I go. I wouldnt say it's OCD but more of a fear of getting tummy bugs, vomiting etc. I am a mess when my children get sick and useless to all. I feel like running away, almost like i cant even be in the same house as them. My husband doesnt understand, and to be honest either do I....What sort of mother runs from there vomiting child, when they need you the most???
I feel pathetic. I want to be a mum who is there for her children, offer comfort and security, how can i if I cannot handle it?
My daughter has a tumy bug at the moment so that is why I am am asking for help. After reading some info I feel thatI have got emetophobia, does it sound like I do, because I am not 100% sure. I have booked into see my doctor on monday to talk to him about it as I rang him yesterday in tears over my poor daughter vomiting. It's not just a 'yucky feeling' of being sick it a total dread, panick and feeling of helplessness.
Has anyone else had a similuar feelings? I would truly love to hear how you cope with this.
Has anyone else