I am too aware of my age every second of the day. It is like a phobia and obsession.
It's in all I do, the thoughts, the feeling
I can literally feel myself older as if transported to that time and feeling how awful I will feel about my youth gone
I am 36 but I feel like 90, my body feels tired and slow and worn out
I keep feeling and thinking that by 45 I will be completely incapacitated and slowed down and hideous because my looks will be gone
such distorted thinking and views about aging
i've been in therapy since this started two years ago with backward progress
i've tried many different meds that only made me worse
how do I completely change the way I think?