Tricia

HI! One of my topics on here is called I NEED ADVICE REALLY BAD. (read it if you haven't already. I don't want to repeat the whole thing again) Anyway, the phobia I mentioned is becoming a lot worse considering I haven't faced it in over a year and a half! But now I'm volunteering at this agency, and sometimes I will go out on assignments (not yet--this is only the first week) and since I don't drive, I will be riding with other people. The thought of possibly being forced to face my phobia is making me feel REAL fear now, instead of just intense anxiety! Today, I was thinking about it, and I got so nervous and scared (not that anyone knows. I hide it quite well) that I actually thought I was going to throw up. Luckily, the feeling passed. What do you think I should do??????? I said in the other post, I can't face the thought of telling anyone face to face. I've told three friends about this through e-mail, and I posted about it below. Next week, I might be forced to face it. The thought just scares me. What do you think I should do about this? I WON'T wear one unless I'm forced to, but then I will be tramatized the rest of the day! This is the only major downside of this volunteering (I'm working in a deaf service bureau.) Now that I know I might have to wear one, I think it's starting to make me feel physically sick. I felt so bad today that I had to take a stomach pill.

I guess I'm meant to suffer with this because the thought of telling ANYONE to their faces really freaks me out, and I don't know why! I feel ashamed, I guess. I don't even know if that's the right word here. Foolish might be a better word! LOL

I don't know if anyone could give me any advice, but thank you for at least listening to my problem!