buzz23

I have had ocd since I was a child. When I was a teen it faded into the background. Now I am in my mid twenties and it has been bad since my early 20's.
I have this tremendous fear of wildlife, nature parks and rabies. I live in NC. Moved here from Long Island about 4 years ago. I think I was culturally shocked. Here there is always wild animals - and lots of roadkill. When I drive mycar I get frealed out b/c of this. When I open my car door, I wont touch the handles, for fear of dead animal guts being splattered on my car if I ran by roadkill. I also have a terrible fear of rabies. There was a story on the news here a few days ago, about 3 people getting attacked by a rabid housecat. I have a cat, but he stays indoors. But b/c of my ocd, I am afraid of him biting me now. He obviously has his shots. LOL I must be the most meticioulous pet owner, considering how terrified of animals I am. I have this obsessive thought in my head right now- and I cant get rid of it. I went to the movies last night with my husband. we saw XXX. I was on the edge of my seat b/c it was an action movie. But I have a habit of picking the skin around my nails. I was doing this for about an hour. And now this a.m. I have this thought in my head that I got bit by something ( like a bat or mouse) in the theater and it wasnt from me picking my skin.
I take Luvox 100 mg in the am and 50 at night. I was up to 200 at one time, but it gave me heart palpitations and vertigo. I really hope someone out there can read this and post back some reassuring support.
I am trying to have a nice weekend with my husband, and I dont want to turn it into an OCD weekend from hell.