Do I have social phobia? here are my symptoms
I feel awkward when I talk on the phone with someone, even if itís someone I donít know. For example, if I call to make a hair appointment I feel like everything Iím saying is being carefully scrutinized and judged. (I know logically that they arenít really doing this but I just canít shake the feeling)
∑ When I talk to people I get really stiff and have a hard time breathing if they are too close to me. Especially if I feel like they can look closely at my face and can read my body language. I try really hard not to show that I am nervous or self-conscious and sometimes it becomes the only thing I can think about. It makes it hard for me to keep up with what they are saying.
∑ I always scrutinize my thoughts so carefully. Iím always trying to figure out whatís wrong with me ďhow come I canít just be myself when Iím around people?Ē
∑ Sometimes when Iím talking to people my face will start to feel hot and will turn red. This happens mostly when I feel that Iíve said something stupid, or I feel like Iím talking too loud, or my voice sounds annoying, or if I have to talk to an audience.
∑ My voice shakes really bad if I have to read to a classroom, or give a speach.
∑ When I'm in public anywhere I get the paranoid feeling that people are staring at me.
∑ When Iím upset and I start to cry around anyone even my loved ones I feel extremely embarrassed and sometimes I will start to hyperventilate, which makes me feel even more embarrassed, I feel like Iím having a panic attack when this happens.
∑ Whenever people walk past me, my immediate instinct is to move out of the way. Especially my dad.
∑ I never feel comfortable around my dad, even when heís upstairs and Iím down stairs I feel this constant nagging in my stomach. When he comes home from work I get very nervous and sometimes I feel like Iím being a little hysterical, I always run through everything Iíve done that day to make sure I havenít done anything that will **** him off.
∑ In the past two and a half years or so Iíve gone from having tons of friends to having literally no friends. The only people I have are my boyfriend and my mom. This didnít bother me for a while but Iím realizing now that itís not very healthy. Iím scared that someday me and my boyfriend wonít be together and ill have no one but my mom. I want desperately to make more friends but Iíve been avoiding confrontation with people for so long because I just canít deal with the anxiety.
∑ Iím scared that some part of me doesnít think logically because my self-esteem is so damaged. My moms seams to think its because of my dad. I donít think Iíll ever be able to feel comfortable around him or even living in my house. I tried to convince my parents to let me move out but they want me and my boyfriend to create a second home in our downstairs, so that I can finish high school and college without having to worry about paying rent. My boyfriend really wants to do it, and I decided to give it a try. I feel like if I went on some medication for my anxiety it would help me a lot, to make friends and keep a relationship with my dad.