| | Bit by a spider
I need some advice on how I can get rid of or at least minimize my fear of spiders. Ive always had a fear of bugs and such but it was the scream jump yell for someone else to kill it kinda fear. Except with bees, wasp etc... I once got out of a moving vehicle because there was a wasp in the backseat with me. Ive gotten much better over time from working outside, i think. Now, i have a new phobia and its worse than the bees.
Last year(2011) end of Nov i was digging through garage, getting out holiday decorations and putting lights up outside and on the roof. Do it every year. Well, few days later i noticed a real red bump on my leg...looked like a real bad infected hair. It quickly got worse. I wont get to descriptive but it was very nasty looking and extremely painful. That was the worst part....the pain. just the air around me was excruciating. I went to dr and they said it was a spider bite. They cultured it put me on pain med, med to control the leg spasms and 2 antibiotics. 1 was very strong. The wound went through a cycle of healing but it was pure hell for a good 2 weeks. Now a year later all that's left is a brown discoloring of the skin about the size of a quarter and a extreme phobia of spiders.
I can see where the fear came from but the severity of is confuses me. I cant go in my garage anymore. I know that the chance of being bit again is not too likely, i know they are more scared of me and blah blah blah.....I know this....my brain is telling me this but once i go in there it doesn't matter. Within seconds the anxiety starts, panicky, paranoid, afraid to move or touch anything then ill start feeling **** on me and by that point I'm outta there! My garage has turned into a health hazard because i just open the door throw whatever in there and that's it. My oldest son will go in there and get something if i need it. It makes me so mad. This all started from a bite that i actually don't know for certain i got while i was inside the garage. I want my sanity and my garage back!!