Do I have PTSD?
Nearly three months ago, on September 10, I gave birth to my stillborn daughter. I had been in labor for 29 hours with very violent contractions. I also lost alot of blood. I was able to hold my daughter after she was born, and we even took pictures of her. 5 days later, we said our final goodbyes as we laid her to rest.
I think about her every minute of every day. I even dream about her. Some of the dreams are very unpleasant, graphic dreams about her coming back to life, or her decomposing in my sight. I have trouble sleeping at night, so my doctor put me on a mild anti-depressant. I have visions of her, of things that happened when she was born, and even very bad images of things that never happened. I can't stop thinking about her, and I'm very very sad.
Could I have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder? What I have went through may very well be one of the worst things a mother can possibly go through.
Missing Mariam since 9/10/03, Born still at 24 Weeks